i know you aint taking this seriously cos my blogskin is an egg (Monday, March 2, 2009 / 6:31 AM)
i have taken a little time off my schedule to blog.despite the immense workload and the unsatisfactory results thus far *frowns* dont complain that you scored worse,cos honestly,you know what i mean.brains are but tangled connections of neurons,where neurotransmitters go ZAPZAPZAP -----like little bolts of lightning.yet,the frail fibres connecting them will soon bbbreak.
a dull pain throbs incessantly in the base of my skull.i feel the need to wake up,regain the drive i had to succeed,to gain leverage over others simply because i wanted to win.but i still dont want to.maybe because last year,i had loved and lost,those that were precious to me,those that i didnt realizewere special to me and the people that matter.because i care,i do care for all of you.
hatred is a very powerful thing.it can reverse tides,crumble mountains but ultimately causes destruction to oneself.i remember how hard i had to struggle to kick,claw and scratch my way to the top and i never want to descend to that level of self-abuse again.where the pain becomes so deep,you don't even feel it when it hurts anymore.
i am Numbed,and it is but a part of me.
walking home is a routine,shoving my bag on the sofa,snapping open my laptop.
click.click.click.
the windows open.
