christians dont read this or you will hate me (Saturday, May 30, 2009 / 9:01 AM)
christians if u know what is good for you STOP reading here.or dont blame me if you get offended cos i dont give a shit.
*[<やおい様>} *.. ἄθεος... preferiti says: i think cos i stayed at nyjc for gary neo then bit disappointed[神樂] 真的爱，就放手一搏；还想什么，还怕什么~ says: ? haha*[<やおい様>} *.. ἄθεος... preferiti says: tt i stayed for a CHRISTIAN it is god's manipulation! i reject God i reject his blessing of faith because i dont want to be Blinded by the illusion of Creationism because the world is fucked up the way it isI should really stop sticking by stereotypes.
I used to try and differentiate myself from religionism- i can be close to people with different ways of thinking,we can still be friends.
tolerate.ignore.understand.
i have even come close to accepting faith as a great power,because it is in the lives of many.
yet it has not touched me and i doubt it ever will.
I am so disillusioned about life,about STUPIDITY.maybe it is all too much for my stifled brain to process.sometimes i think illumination is a curse.but i cant stop that hunger for the truth within me.It may be a sin,lust,greed,gluttony,whatever, i am GUILTY of EVERYTHING.does that really condemn me to hell or is this just God's plans??or is jesus crucified to pay for our sin>>>i dont UNDERSTAND AT ALL.
some biblical imagery could be put in crude animalistic terms.
The Ecstasy of St.Theresa
I saw in his hand a long spear of gold, and at the iron's point there seemed to be a little fire. He appeared to me to be thrusting it at times into my heart, and to pierce my very entrails; when he drew it out, he seemed to draw them out also, and to leave me all on fire with a great love of God. The pain was so great, that it made me moan; and yet so surpassing was the sweetness of this excessive pain, that I could not wish to be rid of it. The soul is satisfied now with nothing less than God. The pain is not bodily, but spiritual; though the body has its share in it. It is a caressing of love so sweet which now takes place between the soul and God, that I pray God of His goodness to make him experience it who may think that I am lying.Some modern critics have derided the semi-syncopal religious experiences as veiled orgasmic phenomena rather than spiritual encounters. However, Robert Harbison has expressed his doubt that Bernini, a follower of the mystical exercises of followers of St. Ignatius of Loyola, would have intended to depict here an episode of lust fulfilled.[4] Instead, Bernini aims to express the facial and body equivalents of a state of divine joy.i think this is merely a veiled description of sex and yes,orgasmic phenomena.
there is even a cult that believes that orgasms bring us closer to God,after all it is the process of creation of life.
yet no,science has disproved it as a bunch of hormones,yet the holies say that it is part and parcel of Creationism.and why do priests do a vow of chastity when orgasms are considered by some to be a holier than thou experience?is it because it is a sin?then if it is a sin,it is such a sin that brought about the birth of every single human being.are we all then products of sin and should be condemned to die eventually under that justification?then why is such sinning kept under wraps by society?
the truth is we are all just ANIMALS.
we were a mistake of evolution.perhaps we were just meant to destroy the earth so that a new one could rejuvenate.remember the story of Noah's Ark.human beings are just tainted with evil.we can ignore our instincts,but do we ever do?our intelligence has caused us to come to believe in a higher power,but can we ever trace it origins?can we ever prove that christianity is not merely a product of our blind grappling to explain the truth,thus creating fantasies to explain this?in the past the chinese could not explain why the sun rose from the east and created some story about sun gods but then hasnt science proved otherwise?
and all this indoctrination going around.i attended a ceremony from a church i shall not name,and it almost seemed to be like a satanic cult.all the singing and eye rolling and chanting and the way they repeatedly tried to force God into my life.Unfortunately, i rejected Him.Now who is the enlightened one here?
for those in christian families,have you ever questioned your religion?or did you jus belive wholly in the bible which your parents provided you with?if you did, then you are just plain shallow.nothing is absolute.humans are flawed.the bible may even be flawed,the original language of the bible is jewish.could some meaning be lost when it is translated,changes in syntax to appeal to the modern generation. if i was christian i would rest until i have gouged out every detail,because i wont so willingly hand over my life like that.at the very least, i believe in power, i believe in faith,but i dont believe in the entity.
i have much more to say,maybe next time if i am not burnt at stake.life has gotten a whole lot more purposeless.
at least i still have that mask of strength to rely on.
