(Monday, November 23, 2009 / 1:24 AM)
there is only one biology paper left nxt week...so extra -.- but then i am glad that A levels is finally almost over at last! whew..
during the break btwn bio paper 3 and chem paper 1,wenzhen jon n i randomly decided to watch Fantastic Mr Fox-.- it was a totally random event and i think it was because we were too bored,haha.well it wasnt that nice to me anyway,i wouldnt advise you to watch it.the theater was one eighth filled with pri sch kids+ their nannies and we were the only jc students there -.-but then its good to watch idiotically childish movies once in a while,brings out the child in all of us.we wanted to watch 2012 initially,but the movie is three hours long.. and halfway through the movie we would already be late for MCQ.haha.it was a good mood booster though,thinking of all the other people practising away while we were laughing at Boggis,Bunce and Bean.
i really appreciated mr neo for all hsi cheerleading though! you really ARE the best bio teacher ever stay young and pretty always!twirl like a disco ball! xD
going out to buy prom stuff! woo.im thinking of changing my shoes cos my dress is like a grey toga..i think it doesnt really match la,but nevermind.
and recently i have gained an intolerance to loud noise.i cannot stand people who yell or yak like nobody's business without reason.ironic considering the people i hang out with..but then i have probably developed an acquired deafness due to prolonged exposure to High Frequency Irritation.like instead of telling people to fuck off you ignoore...i need to cuss less also,almost got killed by my mum when she heard me say fuck.hmm.i think the f word is okay,it is so commonly used anyway,hokkien vulgarities are more vulgar.
Overall the A level ahh..i think it is still okay,not my best effort but then i think i didnt screw any specific subject majorly and looking at the percentile even my weakest subjects should scrape a reasonably good grade.straight As is already out of reach because my chinese got B -.- oh chinese you are my bane of a lifetime.im not someone to project my results but then lets just wait and see next year.
and yeah been considering the universities and courses..even though i was keen on a overseas university when i was in jc1 things have happened that have changed my perspective...what i think is important in life..i guess i just felt caged in singapore,all mugging and all that shit-overseas is another untapped avenue to explore my options? but then i tink i would miss singapore terribly if i went overseas.especially since i have built lasting relationaships with the people that matter.on an emotional level i have evolved alot since entering into a JC.
I learnt how we have to power to hurt others.even with our words.
I realized that despite how synthetic it sounds friendships can really be built through msn..i mean i wouldnt have talked to some people i am pretty close to now if i didnt talk to them thru msn first...i think it is just a less awkward way of expressing yourself..and the pauses in the conversation that you dont have to explain.i mean,you just cant LOL it away in real life right.
I realized even though you may feel that some people are your friend intially..they will drift away...for better people perhaps? when you find out others dont care for you as much as you do for them,it hurts,it always does,and you wonder whether it is worth the emotional investment.but then like a friend said..life goes on and you have to accept it..just keep the people that matter close to you.and caring for someone so unconditionally that it really can cloud your judgement.hmm
i dont know if i regret getting into JC,NYJC into particular.i am still deliberating over which courses in Uni i should take,i want a direction but i guess i just havent found a calling yet.i know i have a lot of time to decide and i should jus well..so some reflecting.lols.i applaud you if you read through this entire utterly boring post about my FEELINGS.bloggers are narcissistic because they think the online world gives a shit about what they think.HAHA.
