Sunburst (Saturday, December 12, 2009 / 4:26 AM)
i had many options,i could go with my CCA to hong kong disneyland,go work and earn some money,go learn a sport or simply chat and hang out with my friends.
instead i chose to go back to be an ACE for the sunburst youth camp.where i felt love and loss
noel and zi xuan i am so proud of you for putting up an excellent performance.GO NYJC!
unfortunately the nyjc teachers so far fail to recognise the impact of the camp on the participants which i find rather regretful.
I have never been in a leadership position neither have i been a very extroverted to ra ra person in fact for the previous SYC i rather faded into the background and this is something that i have come to regret.i realize that a lot of responsibility is put on the aces...responsibility i am not sure i am ready for.luckily the people there were rather understanding...despite certain problems and the lack of sleep making me half functional.im not using lack of sleep as an excuse though i am sure that many other people pushed themselves further than i did during this camp and i respect them for that.
over this week.i think i have learnt to become more patient,more selfless and less reserved..after all you have to show all the love you can to people that are going to be here only for a week.if you still dun want to entertain them for that week only for reasons such as you are tired,such as what ive heard and what ive experienced...then haiz...i really dont know what to say..im just a little disappointed that you didnt cherish this camp as much as i did.i may complain alot and all..but then it is just me.
the view of an ace is a totally different perspective.you are not as close to the participants and seeing them undergo the journey,emotional and physical,that you went through a long time ago is kind of surreal and nostalgic.and being given the responsibility...i have made many mistakes throughout the camp due to my ineptitude...but then i have good aces to help me along and i really appreciate them for that so i love you guys a lot.
tired from a mass hugathon and crying at the airport....shall update more when i feel like it.and yeah..i love all of you from syc.honestly it is such a raw,overwhelming and painful emotion.and i really cant get enough of it,i want to ride this emotional rollercoaster over and over again because this is something i treasure this is part of me and this is one of the only avenues that i have been taught to be understanding,patient and to let down the guard i always put up in front of people i dont know...being in front of friends that are so real they can only be who they are,being infected by the vibrancy and enthusiasm of youth that reminds you to cherish those that stay true by your side,to eradicate whatever narrow mindedness you have,to broaden your horizons to accomodate more friends..creating precious memories that you would treasure in time to come.
