tunnel vision

2010-10-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

tentatively moved to lj! testing out flock.
same name! :D

2010-10-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

dont you feel like some people have no fucking respect for you at all and are purposely out to get you pissed seriously when you arent feeling good in the first place.

some people might say the relationship can be saved but im just so fucking tired of everything.i hate guessing,i hate people who leave me hanging,i hate it when i expect so much from those that are close to me and they fail my expectactions.and i feel all the more worse for it because sometimes it is not really their fault im just the one that is stupid and naive.

i always try not to rant on my blog because i hate emo shit.but more and more each day,i find that i care less and less about what people think of me.you might die today,tommorow,and do you want to live every single day not knowing what kind of shit you might have to face,another day of contemplation.

considering moving to livejournal soon so i can f-lock my posts on.....specific people :/ lest someone draw unneccesary inference.
YAY FOR THE F LOCK I SHALL MOVE BACK TO LIVEJOURNAL(when i have the time)

well,this must be what PMS feels like.

friends?

2010-09-28T04:09:00.000-07:00

i realized,with shocking reality today.as i sat there contemplating.

that you didnt care anymore.

it is sad and cruel.but i shall try to be indifferent because i know that people change,things change.but the world rotates around its molten core and i still exist,the rest of the world still spins in its idiosyncrasies.

hopefully now that i know this it will make me a better person.

just give me some time.i promise.

trust.

2010-09-27T21:38:00.000-07:00

feel really refreshed after talking to the SLS A (or is it B? well,the earliest sls members) from my OG.

screw everything in law school at least i have friends that will help me,that arent fake,love talking as much as me and appreciate my often misunderstood sardonic sense of humour.for that im grateful cos people like that are really the reason why i can carry on surviving in this education system- grades arent really everything it is the experience that counts sometimes.

:)

feel alot better and a little more positive for SLS.

some political agendas of the misguided youth.

2010-09-26T01:54:00.000-07:00

"You and I know what Lee Kuan Yew is. He is a man who ruthlessly grabbed power from his colleagues. A man who controls the entire press. A man who has completely politicized the judiciary and made them his servants. A man who has completely politicized the civil service to do his bidding any time he wants. A man who uses the police force not for legitimate law enforcement but to arrest torture and destroy his political opponents. A man who remains in power by instilling fear in his people. A thoroughly corrupt individual who pays himself and his minions $3.7 million a year, which he shamelessly calls a salary, not counting the several more millions he siphons off from state coffers. Yes a thoroughly corrupt individual."
-Singapore Dissident,Saturday, January 10, 2009
Brain washing young children. Lee Kuan Yew's Hitler youth.

hmm really brings into question what we have learnt!
i am politically indifferent (except for world domination under a single minling-glorification-party rule of course :P) but it is really um,interesting to learn of alternative views of political dissidents in my pursuit in the quest of knowledge and decent honours ( highly unlikely with this kokkanaden of a module*,but shouldnt we all be encouraged to dream once in a while).

im not saying that i am swayed by his opinions but it is indeed refreshing to hear from alternative views so that,you know,you get a more well rounded perspective to judge from.also,mighty scandalous accusations do make an amusing read! :)

back to my personal life,got to see a law iv musical out of a stroke of unreasonably foreseeable luck ( i seem to live off the misery and detriment of others,perhaps a worthy quality of a budding politician?),went with jc classmate johnnyslut as well,army boys are the most free and someone cancelled on me-_-the musical was SUPER GREAT.so sad that NUS law yr1s are not supportive because i didnt see anyone i know.like at all.also feeling superbly underdressed because everyone was in clubbing attire(i.e. makeup+slutty dress+heels)

*disclaimer: all comments are written in a sarcastic and light-hearted manner reminiscent of the real personality of the author ( who yes,is an excellent individual with lots of youth and potential!so do not take offence at whatever she says :P) are not directed at any parties and/or people and the author would not be liable any actions arising from this post,by whatever individuals with the level of stupidity to subscribe to my credibility.

legal clinic

2010-09-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

legal clinic was beyond awesome.
i think its super useful for all the lawyer stuff we hv to do in the future.
and to think the only reason i put it down in the first place is under a suggestion fr one of my og mates.
i think amidst all this mugging,it really gives meaning to what we are gonna do in the future.
awrites! back to mugging!

btw.that pic is just a toy ship- a gift i bought for someone but forgot to give-.-cant rmb who it was.

edited: a more comprehensive account of my experience in the legal clinic.

i think there is a restricted amount that i can reveal,but it is really a whole new experience for me.the most useful out of all the activities imo.cos u really get to experience real lawyers.

so yeah the lawyers are basically probono volunteers who come down weekly to provide free legal advice.and we are supposed to handle registration;photocopy the ICs...etc.there was another NUS girl and a couple more SMU year 3s ( i though they were profesional receptionists at first,LOL,but it seems like they have been volunteering here for quite some time.hopefully i will too)

but then the highlight of our job scope was actually bringing the clients into the rooms, and sitting in a corner taking notes about the questions and answers.each session lasted twenty minutes and we had to go around knocking on doors reminding some people of the time constraints as they tended to ramble about their problems to the lawyers.the volunteers noted that it was rare that tonight all the lawyers were male O.O apparently females are supposed to be more kind hearted? haah!i managed to sit in with each of the lawyers.

well i wont say much about the clients ( i dont know how else to refer to them so clients it shall be) but i can say that you can find many stereotypes as portrayed in drama serial,mediacorp really wasnt exaggerating after all!there would be the scolding uncle...the rich spoiled child who committed a traffic offence on his father's sports car...the single mother who was estranged from her ex husband and worried over the custody of her child...these problems in society,although cliched perhaps are recurring and very real,and it makes me glad that i was given such a oppurtunity to experience it.

*which leads me to wonder,lawyers arent really that different from psychologists after all,except that we are equipped with the skills of how to fix problems rather than the biological background of the problem,the former which is more useful in my opinion as it can efficiently solve the problems of a wider range of people.I realized that communication is paramount in being a lawyer,which makes me grateful that i *ahem* like to talk,even though what is being said is another matter.another point noted is that as lawyers you have to be really sharp and well versed in the areas of expertise such that u can help people with their problems

tatemptations

2010-09-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

those who know me would know that ive always been attracted to beautiful tattoos,to me its always
been a form of art,with the skin as a canvas.but as a sec sch student then,i still had the sense and the insufficient balls not to do something so silly lah.and there is always The Mother.

i dont know what made me think of it again,must be law school! lol.and ive been internalising my thoughts too much.

Recently,ive been surfing quite a bit.and i generally admit i dont like 90% of tattoo designs,they just looks so cheap and ah lian/ah beng,i prefer something more feminine and understated and elegant.Also my future career as a lawyer does not entitle me to any exuberant displays of creativity! :D

haagen daz

2010-09-20T07:12:00.000-07:00

recess week is here.and thus,we have a right to eat and get fat :D YAY.went to centrept today to eat with cheryl at haagen daaz,ordered some 6scoops icecream thingamagig which costs a BOMB ( 23.50?sneaky GST /service charges) and was ultra small.still the ice cream was heavenly! :D worth skipping lunch for.luckily we had only 3 scoops each or i think i would have eaten the whole thing and asked for a second helping-.-

i had chocolate&chocbiscuit bits +strawberry+tiramisu and every bite of tt was heavenly decadence oh why cant all desserts be like this :( but then i would surely get fat.

i truly reccomend it if you are freaking rich.or u could just buy a tub and enjoy at home :P

2010-09-17T04:56:00.000-07:00

some times,i really wish i could read the minds of other people to find out what they want,so i will know what to say.but i think the mystery is part and parcel of life :/

and my bus stop buddies are disappearing on me one by one! ahhhh.thinking about my approach for lawr now.since the majority is C+/- i guess it is good to have a different viewpt,but not so off tangent until you get D lah.

law skool oh law skool.im just brooding.feel sian now tt i sprained my ankle/unable to run/getting fat at home from some uber awesome prune cake that sprung out of nowhere.
thanks goodness for the occasional sardonic torts lecturer to brighten up our day ;) i guess that makes us less aggrieved over law school,haha!

majorly scrwed up torts,reminded agn during torts tutorial,but thankfully there is a second assignment so if i do better there may be salvation! O.O i cannot get a C for my 8 cred subject.T.Tplease just let me float through law skool wif reasonable grades and the occasional reasonably unforeseeable good grade.

2010-09-15T03:54:00.001-07:00

rather pleased at the 1k study award ( for some random study incentive at mom's workplace,woohoo!) which justifies all my excessive spending lately!* textbooks,the like...:(*plus i want a new desk ( had my old one for ten years,falling apart,a new guitar ( okay this is totally unjustified),a new iphone (even less justified),a new netbook,new clothes ( ah this just opened the pandora's box,a girl can never have too many new clothes! :D

ahem so,

i want someone to go out with me to eat ice cream/donuts/pasta/nice food!*hinthint recessweek*
i need nice food! :(
i need to start studying contract/SLS!( ugh the topic always goes back to mugging)

and i got my retainers,such a bitch cos they really squash your teeth to maintain the alignment:(

2010-09-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

im so grateful someone i talked to today thinks mindy chen is good.you get all sorts of people in law school.ahem.contract law :) ahem not corporate lawyer though.

on a sidenote.some people really disgust me.i think im really not suited for law school sometimes.

ability and talent none i have.feel so tired everytime i have to think so hard.and everyone is trying to hard to prove themselves id rather sit back and try to do what i can( WHILE STILL SCORING FOR CLASS PARTICIPATION OF COURSE MWAHHA,except in a case of a certain subject)

ahem.*cheat one* strategy in formulation.

i maded a dock sog!

2010-09-12T09:28:00.000-07:00

AND IT IS EATING MEE! AHHHHHH.

i shall,for this week
1)ignore contract
2)skim through sls
3)chiong LAWR
4)chiong torts
5) play and cuddle sock dog,thanks SYC<3your friends really make you grounded.remind you that there is hope and love beyond those cold courts.and even colder and untouched textbooks.

motivated to study for 3) and 4) after getting the assignment results back! O.O seriously the tension was ttm tt day,lawyers are super results oriented anyway despite preaching about a good mugging-play balance.bah,go to the library,take out tt book and start mugging! :D yay mugging is fun *post midnight delusion*

ONE WEEK MORE TO RECESS WEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

law school

2010-09-04T03:48:00.000-07:00

this is omfg jealousy-.- our celebrity hairstylist david gan ( gay or not,i shall nt comment,with a bald head a la ex biology teacher gary neo) i want also! *coughfriendscough*

im trying to get myself in a good pace for studying because

1) all the tutors have grown on me.i mean,initially i went in like "please dont pick me to talk please dont pick me to talk.." but ive acclimatized to the diff styles of the teachers,some is free for all liek my lawr class,some is the teacher will randomly pick on u ( more pressurizing IMO,cos everyones attention is on you,then if you not really sure about your answer you will lag the class and feel bad) but i think im lucky so far as the teachers who have adopted the latter approach kindly prompt us instead of slaughtering us.

ive realized as long as you know your stuff and basic concepts,tutorials wont be as pressurizing.i find myself wanting to talk and contribute to the class more.this sounds like the virtues of problem based learning or some shit but yeah i think ive more or less gotten used to tuts.

2) previously SLS i didnt talk much ( except for the time i was late and prof beckman demanded me to answer and called me "green glasses" LOL and the time i asked a very lame question about north korea) hopefully i got more things to ask the next lesson and get like at least 1/5 for class participation.i havent yet gotten used to talking with more than a tut-sized audience,and knowing me there is a high chance that something stupid would come out of my mouth ( somehow when i talk the transmitters diffuse too quickly across the neurosynapses and dont pass through the brain at all)

3) i have realized once youve done a couple of high profile things like do silly things/talk alot/wear the same polo tee every day/wear a silly hat during lecture,you tend to get recognized by the entire cohort cos we are so small!i wonder how many people know me so far,i dont think ive been that high profile or did anything...but considernig hw we are gonna switch classes every year/sem i think we will more or less know everyone in the law cohort by the end of law school,at least by face.cheers to future colleagues/competitors/opponents in court.

4) moots are terrifying and i still speak in a monotone.lol.

law school omg im becoming a law nerd.

2010-09-01T01:15:00.000-07:00

waiting for SLS (singapore legal system,a mod i take in law) question to come out at 6pm.honestly isnt there a stroke of sadism in the teachers only to release it in the evenings and demand it in the mornings?

but well,if i manage to survive the assignment,it would definitely be good bragging rights! :P although it is most likely a fail looking at my participation level in SLS seminars..i think i just gave up like halfway cos i couldnt really absorb all that junkload of info,it is not systematic and repetitive like math,or having a definite answer like science,law is a whole new abyss to fall into.we should have like a shirt that says " I survived professor beckman/law school/singapore legal system who um,i dont really care about/a subject that was taught in primary school but comes back 1000000 times more difficult in university".

now we law students have come to a phase where we have come to question our decisions.why did we pick law? and the answer is "because med school rejected me".okay maybe not for all of us :) but at some point of time it is inevitable that we question why we are working so hard,is it for the greater good? for money and for the prestige? or for the challenge and the educational pursuit?( definitely not for me-.- there is nothing educational or fulfilling about old boring english!)

but i guess as the Contract Goddess Lecturer( who sadly,will be only back in march for another miserable amount of lectures,oh how i shall pine while she is away) says,well after all it is useful compared to a PhD on the Black hole,a parasite on a guppy or some nonsensical idiosyncrasy that no one really cares about,while we are doing good to society while moaning over the theories of promisory estoppel( btw,still no idea what that is,ask me after the weekend when ive finished revising contract :P)

law school reflections XXII

2010-08-31T04:38:00.000-07:00

at home typing at my mom's LG net book! netbooks are so cute :) i think ill bug my mom to get me one!or an iphone.for my birthday! highly unlikely that i will succeed she doesnt spend much on frivolous(i.e. more than the basic need to be alive) things....gone was the days where i was a spendthrift,now( especially since a mall is on the way home)

now,on to law school reflections ( sorry michelle i promise your drawings will be on the way soon!crazy and psychedelic.)

terry kan talked today about the ethical question: Would you remove the intravenous tube from a person in a vegetative state?

At "yes" i raised my hand.those who are close to me should know what im talking about.it is not cruel,it is only liberating that a soul should be let free from the body instead of having to claw onto the life-that is meaningless.i remember it so vividly even though i was eleven only...and my life has gone downhill from then.with a few peaks of course.but mostly its a journey of self discovery.

not to say im satisfied,im not.humans never are satisfied.we are always greedy,insecure and jealous.In tort law,part of the reason we find one guilty is from the "blameworthy state of mind".if so,i should have gotten life imprisonment.

i guess i am just in a abit of a sian mood recently with all the mugging and tiredness.and i worry.about myself.and my friends.and how people think of me.but this moment will pass and i will be stronger.but sometimes i cant help but question what i am worth. then i will think," aiyah heck lah,not smart then not smart,not chio then not chio,god made you this way,there is always plastic surgery/lipsuction/marry a slutty ang moh/be a manga artist/bankrupt people also get take care by the government/chop leg,chop hand be beggar also not bad/got friends that are way more bitchy and make life a little more extra spicy rojak.

i turn on the fan,and the breeze blows softly in my face.
wisps of hair get caught on my lips and i blow them away,watching
the wind,a transient existence
teaching white feathers to twirl in a delicate dance
guiding the path of the sleepy bird home

law school pwns me

2010-08-29T01:03:00.000-07:00

Lawyers are no demigods of justice.We are just reasonable people.
A thousand words due by tmr, and I haven’t even started. :(spent today buying school stuff ( my bag broke before torts tutorial, absolutely embarrassing, luckily I arrived early and did all my awkward fumbling in the toilet but that meant I had to carry 2 heavy files around in school!
Feeling the feeling of absolute pwnage in my classes.like u really did study,but then it just never seems to be enough! Everyone knows their stuff and has intelligent opinions and im like uhh…can I just go toilet pleasekthxbye.

But I think my favourite class so far should be LAWR (ironically,since senior allude it to being the most pain in the ass subject, but then I do complain about LAWR with my classmates a lot so I guess it gives us a basis of common topics?) .i guess the ominous feeling of doom and gloom and expectation are not that bad.contract im not sure yet,only one lesson which was okok,perhaps a little too raggers dominated though. torts was….i don’t know I just feel so pressurized in torts like ive disappointed my tutor by breathing the same air  oh im not worthy to breathe your expelled carbon dioxide!

And on the topic I kind wonder if ive been caught up with the prestige+ practicality thing for law,I feel so distant from the rest of humanity.i dunno why I cant just concentrate and mug the whole day feel so averse to mugging now.

sls backup article reading,

2010-08-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

S'pore justifies mandatory death penalty for drug traffickers
Tuesday, 11 May 2010
DPA

Singapore's law minister justified the city-state's tough stance in imposing the mandatory death penalty for drug traffickers, arguing it would be wrong if they got off cheaply because of mitigating factors like youth, a media report said Monday.

Minister K Shanmugam was referring to the pending case of Malaysian Yong Vui Kong, 22, who was sentenced to death for smuggling about 47 grams of heroin in 2007, but challenged the constitutionality of the ruling.

Although Yong was young, it would send a wrong signal to let him go, Shanmugam said Sunday, the Straits Times newspaper reported.

"We are sending a signal to all the drug barons out there: Just make sure you choose a victim who is young, or a mother of a young child, and use them as the people to carry the drugs into Singapore," the minister said. .................

sacrificing the life of a youth,just to justify a stance against drug trafficking.
for public policy,for the greater good?

he looks so ordinary.he could be my classmate in jc or law school ( ironically).heck,he is even wearing the overrated plaid pattern that is fashionable now.given other circumstances..there are so many more things that he could be.

bet it wouldnt stand the anti puke test. *

*test by Judge A ( an anecdote from lovely oxford law lecturer Mindy Chen) secretly abides to...to show the judges are humans and dont have holy light shining out of their every orifice.unless you are Lord Denning of course.

law school 2-reflections on the end of the beginning.

2010-08-24T08:34:00.000-07:00

law school is the craziness!

zoned out during torts lecture today,so had to catch up with actually reading the readings in detail.which was a bunch of old english dodders doddering around about proximity and negligence...which makes me wish i had listened better because she sort of summarized the readings in the lecture.oh morningtimes without coffee are the :(

it is amazing how people in law school are divided into fagheads who think they are smart and will do anything to achieve the required academia or the quieter ones who prefer to mull over their thoughts than spew out unconstructive answers.and surprisingly,the scholars that i know and have spoken too are humble people( probably much more than me) which is perhaps why they will do well in law school,surrounded by the furore of mugging students.

.i think i should start bucking up as well,thoughtfully.it is unavoidable that we get disillusioned,but what can we do but plough on,after all,we have a duty of care to ourselves and all the money that was invested into me.

ive been trying to suppress these feelings of negativity that have somehow managed to wring its way through my tangled mess of thoughts ( if i looked like i am always spaced out,I AM,a perrenial SPACE BUNNY :D).emo i am not.bah.

why do i study law?i certainly do not hate it though it certainly was not my first choice ( one of the ppl that put med-law)

1)it is a helping profession( which was primarily why i chose medicine)
2)i can talk( which i like,i get pissed off by mouthy intellectuals though,screw your vocab and bring back the joys of good singlish!)
3)less bimbo percentage( reconsidering maybe.HAHAA JUST KIDDING)
4)practicality,prestige(dont tell me you dont get a kick when people say,wah! law school!.seriously i will smack your balls) and $( well...........* hides self* i have nothing to say about that,but everyone is entitled to rewards for their hard work!)

but the journey has been interesting albeit not so acclimatized yet so far :)
so i guess we will wait for the exciting part!

it is 11.44 pm now.time to get back to my homework or i would have committed a civil wrong to myself in negligence of my homework.LOL.( lame law joke,i am so sorry the rest of kind,peace loving humanity)

bitter.

2010-08-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

i feel horrible for shouting at my mom today and losing my cool..i swore never to do that and to set a good example for my sister.i thought i was past the rebellious state but then im still a bitter kid....but seriously.she knows how to talk about those issues that really hurt me.

the dark wings that flutter,a flash of anger,is what takes to make a rash decision we come to regret.

.and the opinion of a parent really matters to a kid...you know?i dont know why kids of this generation are so sensitive.

when the dark delicious moon is out.

2010-08-22T04:23:00.001-07:00

its time,it says,with a small cold thrill of seeing just how things must be this one more time like always.it is very much time.
And it is.

cant be bothered to do up my profile.guess i shall someday.meanwhile,been very behind on my work which lead to mild throes of depression.and i have,horror of horrors,assumed a regular sleep cycle where i yearn for bed at 11+.11+! that is preposterous!how will i ever recount my irresponsible teenage days to my future children like this!

things that have been keeping me sane in law school

2010-08-21T00:22:00.000-07:00

I MISS THE LAW LIBRARY! public libraries are always crowded! geez.there are so many distractions at home,especially the Mother with the Ukelele and Vacuum Cleaner and the Visiting Cousins From Hell.

not that i have been working especially hard that my hardworkingness trumps all other law students of course.everyone seems to be aiming for a second class honours :s but oh wells.i shall revert back to the jc philosophy of letting results do the talking instead of gossiping about who might be in the dean's list based on the lawyerlyness of their face.

i realized i have become so absorbed into law school to the extent that i have started making jokes about law that make no sense to the rest of normal,modest and kind hearted society.like one of my og mates was saying,he was driving when he was thinking of all the torts that could have been commited...LOL.and my torts tutor was rattling off on all the things he could sue his friends on...it is good though,that i have come to a profession where the individuals in general are accepting of laughing at themselves.

havent experienced enough of law school to evaluate its killerliness.well i havent failed anything so far,but then it is only one assignment! and that assignment is like based on my tan jia( bread and butter but probably saved my gp-ignoring butt) SUMMARIZING :D honed during PW the Torture of the Torture of the Year in JC.

i hope the rest of my friends are doing fantabulously in the rest of society.:)

off to find a bright shirt for mindy's lesson!( a particularly lovable and sardonic contract law lecturer who picks on people with bright clothing,ive been meaning to ask for the autograph,but due to my innate shyness havent been able to pluck up the courage.)hot pink,hot yellow or hot rainbow? hmm....

Law school

2010-08-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

been really busy lately.

made friends,some that are really special.
breaks are long,yet i always have not enough time and too much stuff to do.ugh endless readings! other faculties,dont even you think about trying to compare our workload.

yet,despite all this shitload of work..i still think,hey,law is the right choice.besides,im really used to btc now,the scenery,the parrots( metaphorical sense) and the chirping.

off to reread my singapore legal system notes!

quarter life crisis

2010-08-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

my start of school resolutions:

ask at least one question per sls class,do not roll eyes at stupid question and stop doodling on my SLS notes.
start an SLS study group
get a walking talking latin dictionary with legs.
resist wearing t-shirt,shorts and slippers to school
eat less sugary stuff =.= sugar is detrimental to brain growth( ok i just made that up,but surely it is not healthy to be the rubbish bin for the undying stack of US chocolates my uncle just brought back? :P)
not fail law school,i hope to get an A for something,although not sure what at this point-.-
enjoy law school :) make lasting friends ( you know who you are)

with rgds to the fourth pt,sth a fren mentioned recently.the year 1s do dress alot more casually than the year twos,i totally did not feel left out the day i wore shorts and slippers.on the other hand,the LT IS SO FREEZING COLD.i think it is a technique they use to get students to dress properly for class.i could literally feel my hairs stand! BRRRRRRR.............

first day of school.

2010-08-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

tommorow,we shall be taught be the all-elusive,much speculated mindy chen! ( she is an author of one of my contract law textbooks and also a lecturer at NUS/oxbridge,apparently rich enough and smart enough to be shuttled across both countries as a vessel of enlightenment.

the first day passed without much incident,beside missing out on meatballs with the OG,going to scout out the library,trying the food at the summit ( worse than NYJC! D: and much smaller too! oh woe is us for the next four years,thankfully there is that prata place and all...)

law school!

2010-08-09T01:04:00.000-07:00

while pining away for my bookdepository packages( all the way from the UK,way to go for credit card spending,espc when it is not my credit card!)

lucky enough to have someone i know in each tutorial group.somehow i tink it is fated :P pretty happy with the groupings! have my share of friends/really smart people who will help me in my studies in the future in my class....

so,what have i been up to so far.

yes.oweek.

my fair share of fun,slight surprise at the extreme rate of ponning,even more surprised that i was not one of the ponners,making new friends,forming new opinions of people ( youll have to ask me personally on msn for that one,as for my closer friends,you already know)

wow,really,to the really awesome rag people who put up such a good show,even though i think the seating and organisation of the entire rag event itself wasnt so good.sun was freaking hot and the seating was obviously NOT ENOUGH.

some of my favourites for rag,i must say( other than law,which will always be the bestest.),would be dentistry ( heard that those guys did the rag and float in a MONTH really kudos to them!plus the outfits and makeup were really superb).but everyone;s float was really impressive and it was a pity that law didnt win D:

and law school awaits,in less than 24 hours,and who knows what is about to come round the corner :)

but ill have to say,after so much personal struggle with my decision to read law,so many accusatory stares from those who chided my elitist wannabe notions due to my med-law choices and a lingering sadness and longing when i talk to my friends who have achieved their goals...i think i dont regret my decision one bit.and ive become pretty used to BTC,the main campus seems huge and intimidating to me now! D:

stuff ive been up to.

2010-07-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

my stuff from the USA is finally here!five 2nd hand lawbooks+sweets+gum+chocos+slippers(wrong brand/colour,but nvm-.-)+armani exchange stuff.those books are really neat,ordered them from sellers on amazon.and literally neat too,besides a little ruffling on the covers everything is like immaculate,they dont even write their NAMES on the books! (except for one of the books,had the name ben burrey) but yeah since somehow the books can get really cheap secondhand i reccomend tt u can buy if you have a human courier to ship from the US to you,really save on the money.got them from barnes and noble and amazon.com..browsing through the content makes me feel a little woozy,so lets just leave the study-worry for when lawschool starts -.-

had a bbq on the weekend with extended family,also dunno wtf is it for.bored on the car with my cousin-.-pardon the zi pai

WEEE! are we there yet?

AAH ITS SOO FLUFFY IM GONNA DIE!!! :D

-line by really cute girl from despicable me.

on the topic of movies,watched inception with lisa,really exciting despite being a reaaallly long movie,considering im not a fan of action blockbusters!and the ending is like...woah...okay i wont spoil it for you,really must watch to get a feel of it :) and leonardo dicaprio's accent is really sexy ,now i understand why he is such a huge star though there are many taller and better looking actors out there!

2010-07-22T21:30:00.000-07:00

im a bLAWger.LOL.

…Oops.
You found yourself in law school. It was an accident. You are scouring the lecture hall for clearly marked exits. You are terrified. You wonder which future legal career would suit you best: philandering corporate law shark with prozac/cocaine addiction and illicit office affair in tow, or dashing human rights lawyer shot dead by rebels/spies/thieves while working tirelessly (and pro bono) to free a democratically-elected freedom fighter wrongfully accused and condemned to death. Both options cause you to hyperventilate. Where are those exits? Or a brown paper bag? Or a Ctrl+Z?

boring classical guitar post

2010-07-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

i got a merit for my grade 5 though i failed the aural part terribly cos i couldnt understand wtheck the examiner was talking abt,my teacher taught me the aural part in a different format so for most of it i just went like HUH??! :) but mostly im fine because i didnt screw it up like grade 3-.- well next is tackling the nokia waltz,bach minuet in C and prep for grd 8 perhaps within the next 2-3years,i need some time to just enjoy my guitar and build on my foundation.

so in four years time i would be graduating with a diploma and a degree in law! :D depending on my level of laziness i probably take a really long time to catch up on music theory which has gone down the drain.

recently changed my strings,been an absolute nuisance cos my silver strings go out of tune really easily :( thanks heavens i have an electronic tuner.well at least it isnt a piano which is really expensive to tune,HA HA HA HA to all piano players out there ( which happen to be *ahem* alot of my friends)

CCA-wise i dont think i will be pursuing it in NUS?cos i find alot of guitarists to be really arrogant (hence the CO in junior college and the NPCC in secondary school).and i see it more as a hobby than as a performance thing.and some more for NUS it is a niborii guitar ensemble ( like they have different sizes of guitar for a diff octave range i think,interesting i guess but i dont know if it is to my liking.and im not trying to show off,but then most people just go in with no background and i may just end up sitting there looking bored while the rest build up on their foundational skills,might as well use the time to prep for high grade exams or join another CCA :P)

what is it that you fear?

2010-07-21T08:15:00.001-07:00

recent events in my life have been telling me,face what you fear.and it would make you stronger.
the problem is i just want to curl up into my hidey-hole.

school is going to start like,soon! gaah! and im still not brushing up on my intelligence! seriously to get into studying mode right now would be torturous ttm=.= i still remember the single digit scores i used to get from gary neo's test and made to copy the essay 15 times.ive heard that law lecturers are kindly ( unlike what they portray in the scam of a night court;only law students would know -.-) but then copying the law casebook 15 times is not what i have for entertainment.ooh biology still haunts me.

Party in pants!

2010-07-20T23:44:00.001-07:00

my amazon books arrived safe and sound! plus a pack of fujifilm :)i guess i will be getting the rest of my lawbooks from the co-op.woo hoo to online shopping and boo hoo to not having any seniors i can buy books from!i love amazon and relatives that go on long overseas business trips!and i survived a japanese gameshow! (watching season 2 now out of boredom lol,they have incredibly stupid games like the one above.like wth party in pants.and some diaper game.)

whenever a contestant loses,the sayonara mob(ridiculous looking group of japanese men in suits and sunglasses) carries them away and they get a flight back to america.how lame is that honestly lol.xcept for this instant,where there were sayonara bearz instead.yeah.bearz with a z.cos its cool.

revisited my favourite deviant artist today,i wonder if i had trodden upon the path where i dedicated my energies to art,would i have flourished as such?sadly,im now reduced to random doodles on scrap paper.

bad hair moment

2010-07-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

recently,ive been thinking of doing something to my hair.its annoying to have dyed hair and when the black roots are showing D: such as in the case of mine.lol.saw a mutual friend on facebook with white highlights which looked cool so i might try it out! have to figure out how to fund myself though havent been exactly frugal lately.must lock myself in the house and rot more often.

looking forward to the end of this week,to get my lawbooks,catching up with friends,my newest artemis fowl book being shipped in freshly printed from the US.:D awesomesauce.!

despicable squeee!

2010-07-16T00:01:00.000-07:00

You're dead if you aim only for kids. Adults are only kids grown up, anyway.
Walt Disney

ironic for a dreamworks movie,i know.

oddly,im missing many friends right now * frowns* its a weird emptiness.school hasnt started for me to interact with my lawmates,some friends are busy with their school camps/NS and i miss money also because it is the pre-school-reopening catch up with friends since sec school period where im going out alot.to the extent that ive watched three movies in the past 2 weeks! Knight and Day,Despicable Me and Toy Story 3.to be honest my favourite was Despicable me and oddly i wasnt as touched by Toy Story as most of my friends,well because,they are just toys and i didnt grow up watching the first two movies.Alot of the jokes in Toy story also werent as funny as Despicable me and God knows i love a good laugh out loud comedy.

and i recently talked to huiying about how i can psycho myself not to like anyone,cos i dont think one sided crushes are worth the emotional investment.i wonder if it is healthy though o.O

books,books

2010-07-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

should i order the next book of artemis fowl?hmm...im way to old to be reading books about child geniuses!butbutbut fantasy is still my first love,and even as a young child when i was forced to read by my dad,eventually i still grew to love books,even if i did not understand;i just let the words swirl around my head,like music.which is why im sometimes familiar with the meaning of certain words but im not sure how to explain,hence my frequent epic 1/5 scores for vocabulary GP days =.=

went to hunt for a new blogskin as i realized macarons are not so nice after all ( too sweet and weird flavours,really over hyped) had to enlarge the font especially because all the blogs nowadays are certainly not tailored for myopic people,sheesh.

i kissed a girl and i liked it ;) taste of her cherry chapstick.
to be honest,the only time ive been kissed by a girl is during the goodbyes of SYC. O.O on that topic,congrats to all the new aces! ( yes ive said this a bazillion times but it just makes me really proud ! :D i guess tough experiences in life really make you a whole lot more selfless.)

squid porn

2010-07-08T04:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder what im worth.

was about to confirm plans for meeting a long lost friend before i realized i forgot her phone number.=.=

mulling over the perfect gift for my mom's birthday.something she would actually use instead of going "oh,thats nice" and putting it aside.i considered flowers( totally not to the point ) but they are really freaking expensive,like $28 for a single nicely wrapped sunflower and hundreds for a bouquet?

which leads to to think of a candy confession during law camp,would you rather receive flowers or chocolates? well,surprisingly i would choose flowers because ive never received anything other than single stalks on valentines day.but then the price is really horrendous and chocolates would be much worth the money,and u can share them with others( things always taste better shared,i dunno why,maybe it is because both of u can complain about the food simultaneously and complaining releases endorphins of self-haughtiness.)

anyway for girls ive randomly found a really nice beauty blog http://www.beautyfool.net/ some foreign student blogger whose musings about the superficial are actually quite nice for light reading.but then the topics are so girly that i went back to reading BBC. info is not too indepth but well you must be a shallow person to be interested in this kind of thing in the first place.yay bimbos ftw!

and yes for the squid lover,u know the tough chewy part that is not a tentacle of a squid? well,if it tastes a little too horny for your liking,you may have been eating SQUID PENIS =O

Super Squid Sex Organ Discovered

Male O. ingens with erect penis and ejaculated spermatophores on table (penis is white tubular structure in lower half of the picture)

The mating habits of deep-sea squid have been revealed for the first time, after the discovery of a male squid with a huge elongated and erect penis.

it is like so ridiculously phrased that i cant believe it is from BBC ! some more with alliteration of Super Squid Sex.=.= haha!

expectations.and cake.

2010-07-06T00:53:00.000-07:00

i think options are an additional burden!if only the world could be totalitarian.

OH YEAH BABY!

went back to SIWW headquarters this week.I MISS THE GIRLS THERE.:(

they are so full of nonsense! i think my lawmates are like alot more mature than them! haha.with a few exceptions of course.

moments of solemn contemplation

and no,the serious cutthroat world out there doesnt scare me.If it seems like im always acting childish is because i celebrate youth.I dont want to grow up so fast because i know i will get jaded sooner or later.there is a fine line btwn ignorance and directing your energies to something else.

im still in mourning for discovering my ambition and losing it but i realize sometimes we can never be good enough.perhaps im too cowardly and selfish to wait a little longer to realize my dream.but here is to another good 4 years in law school :)
but it is still a heartache,like a lingering emptiness.i try,i really do,to have no expectations so i wont be disappointed but i always fail =.=

but then i look at the people i know who are struggling to get an education.my cousin,an ITE student,recently talked to me about the concerns about his future.He is a culinary student in ITE Clementi ,specialising in Western dining.Polytechnic prospects,working prospects,all of these seemed very foreign to me but i knew they were very real to him.i tried to help him by researching about sunrice and other alternative institutions,but essentially i realized that the food and beverage industry depends on your basal passion and ability to cook.it is really about passion,slogging those long hard hours in the sweltering kitchen perfecting a recipe.and im not sure,from his toneless dejection,that he has such a passion,or merely views it as an occupation for his bread and butter.( not that he wouldnt be able to get free bread and butter from the restaurant he worked in!)

bread and peanut butter for gastronomy's sake.

passion and ability.do i even have those in the course i have chosen to partake in?

I thought of my friend who was working part time while studying in SIM.i thought of the people who couldnt get into university despite slogging so hard.I thought of the people.And i realized that academically i am fortunate,even though i always fall short of my heavenly goals,there is always a bed of stars to cushion my fall.( though u can hardly call my previous schools a bed of stars,they are like half fked up but twice the fun! XD)

so anyway to lift my mood i have been doing research on CAKES i used the 0804 style of birthday celebration on my lawmates and so far response has been mostly positive but somewhat mixed. :/ i still get to buy cake anyway hehe shameless.

i really love coffee bean's cake and their cute designs! if anyone gave me a slice i would positively hug them! <3 cant stop drooling over the brochure.okay not literally drooling that would be really gross but the cakes just look really gooooooooood.CHOCOLATE!

Oh Mr Coffee Bean tiramisu,looking deliciously chocolately today!how i wish i could just bite into the layers of soft vanilla sponge and fluffy cream.The smooth texture would then be perfectly contrasted by scatterings of crunchy bittersweet chocolate and the powdery coffee.heavenly decadence in every mouthfullll~~lets have a date next week baby :D

actually this is not my favouritest flavour per se larh but it was the nicest picture of a coffee bean cake i could find using GOOGLE IMAGE's limited capabilities.and would still wuv the person that gives it to me.

2010-07-03T22:42:00.000-07:00

sometimes,its the silence that makes you listen.

SIWW

2010-07-01T18:30:00.000-07:00

this is probably the last time im blogging using this computer,siww is over at last :D and i am freeee and unemployed bummer once again so i can help out in rag

overall the experience had its highlights and lowlights and the ending was bittersweet cos i did make many friends ( the pub people are like insanely crazy and talkative and friendly,really did make me feel welcome ) anyway thanks to zhiwen for introducing me the job,it is quite valuable work experience and being able to click with the colleagues as well as the cleaning auntie was great.

Our handsome Managing Director and future minister Michael!oh and the CEO Han Tong drinking water at the back! HAHA IM ON FIRST NAME TERMS WITH DA FUTURE MINISTERS :Dbut seriously they are nice men,michael is always asking about the welfare of the staff and is extremely friendly while han tong shared with me his experience on his daughter getting into med school etc.:) congratulations on the SIWW being a success! we really needed it,seeing the flood incidents did not bode too well for PUB's public image.but i am certain that we progressed from an international standpoint from this week,i can see that the VIPs did enjoy themselves thoroughly on some of the events,really making singapore a memorable place.i sound like a patriotic prat but this really is true lah must experience it to realize it.

1st day.

helped out florence and zhiwen in calling people and saw tt we didnt have the siww shirt and most of the people on duty were poly or uni students.some of the poly students looked really ah lian and ah beng and i was wondering why should we use them to represent the face of singapore to ministers and stuff initially ( not that i have anything against poly students,i wanted to be one once myself).but after working with them throughout the week i can see them some of them really do put in the effort to make siww a meaningful experience for the foreign delegates and recognize the magnitude of the event to do a decent job.for example when they volunteered to give up their lanyard to the delegates on the fourth day so they could get into universal studios,it was kind of a wow moment for me.

Dr Amy Khor at the Water Leaders Summit lunch looking cute in her tailored suit!she is really likable even on first sight,no wonder she managed to make a comeback in politics even after being insulted by goh chok tong! haha.

2nd day.

cant rmb much abt today,except that i had to settle some printing stuff.lunch was chicken breast with some stuffing,not bad.but i was so bored i played with my round slab of butter and drew ridiculous smiley faces.and yes one thing about the service...they actually let part time fresh students and grumpy aunties serve the impt ministers..guess it is to cut costs but the service really lacked in the sense that it was obvious the people were amateur,kept serving wrongly.

missed the lky dinner :(i heard tt it is the last dinner of our dear MM and he was really funny but oh well. due to some stuff i had to settle.SIGH.and i was already pretty tired because not sure why the past few days ive had problems sleeping.

3rd day.

just helped out in the secretariat room printing stuff for the liasion officers...my boss kept changing his instructions so i got confused geez.i never knew that printing stuff could be so time consuming and tried to print as much as i can.after that just lugged everything home lor.

after work ended went for dinner with pak and dan at the citylink @ nyny :D good company and the food was not bad, but i think we overstayed our welcome cos the manager was like practically asking if we had any last orders and finally shoving the bill in our faces.(douche,the place was super empty!)i have more rebate points now though!haha.

"ほんまや HONMAYA!"

they gave out smaller bottles at the convention but this was the only proper picture i could find online for now :P CUTE RIGHT PACKAGING MUCH NICER THAN NEWATER.or maybe it is cos im a girl.the water tastes pretty normal though,which is kind of the point i guess =.= NeWater is more fresh and sweet cos singapore is more paranoid and filters out every single weenie bit of microbacteria.guess it depends on the person not too fussy about water myself as long as it doesnt taste too metallic.

4th day.* highlight of the week!*

(woke up early to go running -.- bad nite sleep agn and decided to poke my muscles a bit)
jurong ->newton->jurong->universal studios-> suntec-> home

( of course with some help from mom and my shameless self asking for taxi claim)

today is the universal studios cum the amazing paper race day! gosh i never thought that a stack of papers to photocopy could cause me so much problems that have me racing around the entire day.firstly in the morning reached waterhub and realized they had 1) no colour photocopier 2)slow printer 3) i could not connect my laptop to the printer 4) i did not bring my thumbdrive because i thought there would be a colour photocopier and it was merely photocopying.screw it D:

and my boss...well long story.even the malay guy slacking nearby took pity on me and helped me with filing and sorting out papers even though he was pretty busy himself,thanks alot dear malay dude :D i think i would have never made it to universal studios without your help.and thanks mom for your ferrying!

so zhiwen and i tried a couple of rides( actually only one ride and one show was open),the camera show and the mummy ride.i can errr..sort of say i got over my fear of roller coasters with the mummy ride! after my traumatizing primary school experience ive always had an unreasonable phobia where i would throw up after every roller coaster ride because i was so scared.it was quite funny because the man-in-business-wear ( probably an important minister or ambassador)in front of us turned around and asked:

"Your first time?"

"Yeah,first time."

"THIS IS MY SECOND TIME ALREADEEE!!!! HEEHEEEHEEHEEMUAHAHHAH!!!!~~~"

" eeeehhh really so fun ah?? no spoilers no spoilers!!!!!!"

HAHA SOMEONE MORE CHILDISH THAN ME :D throughout the ride he was like WHEEEE!!!!!HEHEHEHHEEEEEEEE. the memory of the incident still makes me laugh.ministers can act like kids too okay! it is important to always stay a kid at heart lest a universal studios mummy ride presents itself in front of you in an international event you have to attend.overall the ride was short but SHIOK,screamed my lungs out for fun.some of the hardcore rollercoaster fans might find that no kick,but the screaming part and the dark rollercoaster where u couldnt see where u were going or falling part was uber fun.

the camera show wasnt that impressive or scary to me...it was a bit of a waste of props and resources imo though the effects were generally okay there was this feeling of fakeness i couldnt get over and to attach steven spielburg's name with that kind of performance was just zz.plus the presenter was obviously a part time student and recited her lines monotonously,this is a special effects show for gods sake at least show some enthusiasm to get the audience hyped up even though you may only be paid 6.50 per hour. alot of the employees were students too,which i guess was to cut costs,even though they hired a few professionals as the entertainers as well.

another random HONMAYA! siww photo i found on the net! what does honmaya even mean??and yes all HONMAYA font must be in pink cos it makes it more maketable than newater! can you resist but to pick it up and drink it?

the extraordinary and plenipotinary ambassador of the republic of angola! HHAHAHHHA.im not kidding that is really what his namecard said! zhiwen and

SIWW girls missing edah plus SHREK :D thks zhiwen for the photos!

after that decided to catch my lawmates on the way home.since micheal dropped us off at ritz carlton.miss u too jiamin xD ppl shamelessly walked into kbox after loitering outside a bit and after none of the staff stopped me so i just continued walking into the room. asked about the sunflower i brought there,is cos the colleague poh leng yew went to steal the flowers under nicole's insistence.then the staff were like "just take lor" so we just shamelessly took like 5 sunflowers to give to the siww girls :D

posing in front of universal studios classic er....rolling globe thingamagig.

but the preview of the effects ( in multiple tv screens,a bit lame) really got me a taste of how breathtaking movies can be.cant wait to watch toy story 3 with jlau and cheryl on sunday!

hlaf emo post + ion!

2010-06-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

there are some things you say that you cant take back and i can never forgive i hate it how words can hurt this way. the invisible helmet on my head just screws on tighter every second,clouding my vision.at many points in my life i have bridged to new chapters where i feel that i may be the same person but more liberated.now i can laugh without worrying what people think of me,criticize without worrying about hw others judge me,say anything that is on my mind without worrying about losing my friends cos they know what kind of person i am.

it really affects me alot when i lose a friend cos i feel that i dont have chemistry with alot of people such that i can talk about anything comfortably with them.it makes me really disillusioned about friendship sometimes,is it really worth the time and emotional investment when people just drift apart eventually and dont bother to communicate,or move on to new environments.i really do make the effort to maintain communication with the people in my life that i treasure and whether it gets reciprocated is another matter.i dont feel that it is pathetic at all because it comes from the bottom of my heart and it is up to other people to judge me.perhaps i have made mistakes and rubbed off people the wrong way,but u cant really please everyone can you.

move on,forget,laugh,love,live.wonder how long i can keep this shit up.

anyway on to lovelier things! i went to ion with jonathan lau the gay pimp yesterday :D and we stared at coloured pencils and louis vuitton bags (yes we actually went inside the shop looking like a couple of idiots and enquired very cheem questions and i declared loudly i wanted a lv messenger bag)and some more he looked like a banana cos of his shaved head and yellow polo tee HAHAHA.

why ion in good to shop in:
can pole dance,skate,slide across the floor and ull practically be unhurt and not affect anyone (may get a few weird stares though) while for taka u need to squeeze through the crowds.plus u can act tai tai and posh and make plans for ur future career haha.

notable shops in ion:

faber castel
remember the colour pencils we had a pri school?well now they cost $1150 per set for adults! whoa! we practically stood outside the shop and ogled at the pencils.a few miserable pencils that pwn a louis vuitton bag.like wat turf.not something u see every day,only in ion! for the rich and er...richer.

then we went taka,where jon forced me to say hi to my ex colleagues being the true asshole that he is and to cope free coffee.
IT IS FREE.

louis vuitton
that is needless to say,however zhiwen just told me recently not worth it to buy now cos they changing the design,i salute you girl truly a tai tai in training.jon is buying from hk anyway and im not too interested in branded good unless they are like gorgeous like the louis vuitton messenger bag which i fell in love with when i saw it at a polar cafe <3 oh my loves i shall holdeth u one day,thou art kind.

some liquer shop
with many bottles of different coloured liquer shaped like male genitalia -.- and super expensive of course,once broken considered sold.
SOUR CHERRY WITH A DASH OF VODKA SOUNDS GORGEOUS :)*hint*

then we sort of discuss stuff for our birthday party and decided cope our serviettes from macdonalds,our sugar packets from starbucks and make it a potluck party in the void deck (JUST KIDDING LAH HAHAH) but i really want a big birthday bash so that i can meet all my friends in one go though the usual big bday is when ur 21?

taylor swift: pop phenomenon

2010-06-24T07:47:00.000-07:00

someone please explain to me why i like taylor swift.
i talk about her quite frequently with my friends,have her pretty face as my handphone wallpaper( in a pretty turquoise dress with gold dust *.*)

and skill wise even her manager/producer/director declared that she CANNOT SING.granted her voice is quite breathy and squeaky compared to her album track version and most of her songs can be played in a few simple chords,the strumming technique is nowhere near as refined as jason mraz or john mayer ( guitar gods *worship*)

and is something wrong with those marketing producers.she is so NOT COUNTRY.i mean,in a couple of tracks there is an evident country-ish feel in the background tracks like "our song" but you belong with me is DEFINITELY NOT COUNTRY.

the lyrics are even more ridiculous than high school musical! ( i watched high school musical 1 & 2,refused to pay money to watch the third one and will only watch the fourth one if it features zac and vanessa being destroyed in an alien vs predator menace )

but anyway i think her appeal lies in her soulful lyrics,her sincere and clean image and her appeal to the lingering desire in our hearts for when we can sing "today is a fairytale".on the other hand,ppl might think what the **** is she talking abt this makes no sense.LOL.

so anyway that would be all for now.

muacks!

p.s. this is my blog,my name is min ling ( 2 words) and i am not going to sing at kbox!

embarassing stuff do not read

2010-06-21T20:22:00.001-07:00

got another call from another friend :D the moment I saw the number I picked it up and went “HELLO SLUT :DDD” VERY LOUDLY. late but a nice surprise!and he proceeded to remind me about an embarrassing incident during/after michelle’s birthday party,which I am reminded to blog about in total ashamed embarrassment, this could be framed in the Hall of Min Ling’s Embarrassing and Unglam incidents as the Top 10 incidents of Stupidity Not Amounting to Her Fault.

Okay so basically yk was fetching us home,me and jlau and some others happily in the car.boomz goes the car!( so okay maybe not) then 5 seconds before yk drops me off,I go “hey rmb to open the boot hor” cos my basketful of leftovers and stuff are in the carboot( I had to carry off like a mountain of food to michelle’s party).so I get out of the car,say byebye and proceed to the boot.I attempted to open it a couple of times and was puzzled that IT WOULD NOT OPEN.then the car suddenly just sped off! I think yk totally forgot my stuff was in my boot.i was like KNNBCCB FUCKFUCKFUCK WHAT THE HELL?????? But obviously I didn’t run after the car ( it is impossible to catch up.ok maaayyy be I did my memory is kind of foggy at this point but I was kind of stunned that such a clichéd incident could happen! It is like some channel 8 drama of chasing after cars fruitlessly lah! Stupid driver and stupid passengers not to notice me! TSK WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS ARE YOU GUYS) so after being unceremoniously stranded,i realized that my phone was flat FML and so I sped off home to call jon’s phone ( I can memorize his phone number cos he spams too much,FML) and listen to him laugh hysterically at my moment of Stupidity while asking yk to turn back the car back to my apartment.then I went down to the car ( hard time identifying cos it was so dark alrd) and jokingly scold the both of them ( still laughing hysterically) and get my stuff.geez.yk lives all the way in jurong east leh! Imagine if he had driven my stuff all over to jurong east.OMG.NOOOOOOOO.
Okay back to the topic.i love it when people call to chat on the phone it really adds a personal touch. i know im really lucky to get friends who care enough to call instead of just leaving text messages on my phone.( im such a chatterbox,usually the few words in text message aren’t enough,im radiating sugar!) even though it pisses off my mom when it comes at the dead of the night,the laughter and friendship is worth a few scoldings.i really do miss JC friends loads.im like sooo sentimental lately! I guess when u make lots of new friends I tend to compare them to the ones I currently have.

Okay not that I don’t love people who text as well,shows that you care!

Ive been wondering recently if we should judge people too early.for example,whether they dao us,whether they bother to make friends with you, their demeanour, their mannerisms,they way they act around others,it all factors in the perception of someone.for me chemistry matters a lot when making friends,probably because my best pals are those people who are proud to be who they are and not afraid to share it with the world :D I wish I could reach that pinnacle but by nature im still somewhat reserved.WILL HAVE TO WORK ON BEING LOUDER.LOUDERRRRR.

macaron-making!

2010-06-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

life is wonderfully mundane.

finally some semblance of routine as i wake up and decide to go for a morning jog,then brunch :D all by my blissful self alone Mr.Fork and Mr. Spoon after Mr.Chopsticks Fail. then headed off to Chinese Swimming Club for a cooking lesson with Sharon the pastry madame.

essentially,just learnt how to make macarons with this ah beng looking instructor from coffee bean and tea leaf.it was basically a cooking demo,i felt very ripped off in not being able to do much hands on.ill upload photos when i hv the chance!

when he squeezed the macarons out onto the baking tray,me and sharon were like.omigosh.SO PINK.but pretty all the same :D and 75% of the session was made of talking cock with sharon and catching up on updates and telling her about law camp.oh gosh how i miss talking cock with the nyjc-ians.i havent found anyone who is like them in law yet hopefully i do soon.

i took out my polaroid photo montage and kind of explained my og to her,she told me one of the guys was cute ,it was so out of the ordinary that i burst out laughing and she had to endure ribs from me for the rest of the day.

otherwise the macarons were pretty tasty,life is uneventful and sharon i hope you found the nuts at chinese swimming club delish

had a long phone talk with jon on the phone recently,been wondering if law is the right choice.he is one of the people that i feel would understand me the best,law is too serious and political for someone who likes to talk nonsense like me.i read an article in the newspaper yesterday on NUH and i really feel that the medical profession can be something very meaningful ( or if it is just propaganda by SPH.

this will be the start of a food series :)

going out with jonnycake next week to get his louis vuitton wallet O.O what is with the world and branded wallets.LOL.but look forward to crapping with him again! my nonsense level is stock full. :D

2010-06-17T20:12:00.000-07:00

had a chat with one of my lawmates on msn a few days ago.im really glad someone in law is at least vaguely similar to my jc pals.jc was one of the only times i had something closest to a clique that made me look forward to going to school every day despite all the politics and insane workload.

well off to do some requests!

Im clinging onto a beach ball bobbing on the blue-green waves of the ocean.

mental note to stay off facebook at home and at work.

138. Court dress
(1) The attire for male advocates and solicitors appearing in open Court will be an ordinary long-sleeved white shirt with a turn-down collar, a tie of a subdued or sober colour, a dark jacket, dark trousers and black or plain coloured shoes.
(2) The attire for female advocates and solicitors appearing in open Court will be a long-sleeved white blouse high to the neck, a dark jacket, a dark skirt or dark trousers and black or plain coloured shoes. Conspicuous jewellery or ornaments should not be worn.
(3) When appearing before the Judge or Registrar in chambers, the attire for both men and women will be the same as for open Court.

....and to go shopping =.= itll be my first suit though!

i can imagine waking up in the morning 10 years later to a wardrobe full of black and white.

LAW CAMP II

2010-06-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

finally bonked at my aunties scanners and scanned my montage of my og polaroids!stuck there with blue tack cos im going to remove it from the frame to put back in the album,im scared itll be damaged if i leave it montage style.im a bit worried about being overly dramatic and seeming like too much of a showoff,but a couple of people seem to like it so far so itll stay up until further notice ^^

will blog more when i have the mood and the time tmr :)

law camp I

2010-06-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

law camp has been awesome so far,loads of great people in my OG and i dont see any of the elitist shit i was warned abt XD definitely memorable.it really questioned my intentions to read law and showcased the best and worst sides of law school.there were laugh-out-loud moments and shit-in-your-pants scary parts,but it is no use describing them,youll have to experience it yourself to get what it really feels like.

had to leave at the end of the second day though cos of work :( wished the whole day tt i was there with them.and looked like =.= the whole day cos i was damn shagged ( didnt sleep well for the whole week cos of late sleeping at 2-3am? not too sure why must get my sleep cycle back on track.going back tmr cos i miss my OG too much and for the formal dinner which im kinda looking forward too though it will be weird cos like we are dressing up to go to school but nehmind got style can le.

got a new fuji instax recently,contemplated for quite awhile before getting it cos im not one of those people crazy about photography and the cost of the film is just plain scary,it is like a stab to my wallet with every flash of the photograph.and if the photo turns out like shit THERE IS NO TURNING BACK :( wasted a couple of films due to wrong exposure u can just FEEL my heart breaking.but otherwise i choose it over digicam any day * winks* the feel of instant shiokness is just satisfying to me.

was deciding btwn blue and pink ( rather lamely i might add cos i just stood there and uhh-ed and umm-ed,so awkward.and the china auntie was giving me that sian face while i took my own sweet time deciding.) auntie finally psycho-ed me to choose pink though im more known for my blue-ness D:photos will be up when i have time,it is interesting to see how the shots look like,some may be darker or lighter than u think and in one self portrait ( read: cam whore ) i had some brown splash that looked suspiciously like a shit worm beside my innocently smiling face.

awesome if u are into this kind of stuff <33

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so here is myu eva luation after taking a few shots.

be prepared to sacrifice a few test shots.heart pain ahhhh~~~
camera is cheap compared to digital cameras but film is super expensice grr.like $1.25 flies away for every shot :( im still trying to figure out the settings relative to the environment,it really isnt as easy as it looks.oh man really getting my just deserts for suaning photography as not being an art before lol.

buy from j8 the kodak there actually quite cheap lei,i mean for a shopping centre as compared to online,like $119 for a pack of film + the camera,the auntie if she likes u will get a free album( YAY) and help you set up the camera and teach u to use it.online is like supposed to be cheap,but not worth the risk and the ripoff :/

u cant undo the picture -.- so you better get a good shot there!but the unexpectedness and the feeling of shiokness when the film develops is just undescribable.i think it is really worth the cash!

girls love shoes,boring post for guys

2010-06-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

as i quote from michelle the cow dung farmer,pardon the uncharacteristic and bimbotic zi pai ( at least i nvr post on facebook okay,not like i french kiss the shoes or what).realize lots of the stuff that bought lately seems to have caught on the safari trend,though not to the slutty extent that i would actually wear tiger stripes or slutty leopard prints or wear lobster claw alexander mcqueen shoes*)

mom gave me a $20 charles and keith voucher which i decided to spend on ( for a dinner that i have coming up) SHOES :D not just any shoes,GOLDEN SHOES !

that is a box btw,to keep random stuff in.

i like my guitar too,went to cristofori to test some within the $800 price range and found them to be quite shitty( couldnt hear myself at all amidst the pri 1 kids banging away at the piano,probably sth like canon in D or baa baa black sheep).really worth it lugging back in a big box from clementi from the yamaha sale and loads cheaper and higher quality than the one on the market.( $500 ++ it was on sale) playing shitty instruments once in a while really makes you appreciate the feel and grain of a good quality one.

* foot note:

omg alexander mcqueen lobster shoes are freaking crazy,there were quite in last season ard the time"bad romance" by lady gaga was released and she wore the shoes.i mean they just look extremely painful as i watched the catwalk show ( because it has a a lady gaga theme song!) instead of appreciating the clothes i kept thinking: poor models they must be going like:OH SHIT OH SHIT PLEASE DO NOT FALL AND RUIN MY CAREER. and OMFG THESE SHOES HURT.

could you wear them? im alrd having enough problem with 2 inch heels probably not.

post spam bored @ work

2010-06-03T19:03:00.000-07:00

i do not miss michelle because im going to be rich in the future,own a private jet and fly there every weekend for all i care and get free medical treatment and cow dung.

working for the Singapore International Water Week,pretty insightful so far! plus i learnt how to use excel and get paid for it! oh an office job is so much better than sales in terms of comfort.but it is just the butt-paining from sitting too long that is a little :S hopefully i am not too sedentary in the future i heard that sitting too long ( even if you exercise and stuff) can be detrimental to your health.

KA SPLLLLAT!

2010-06-03T18:44:00.000-07:00

dont you think it is funny when in those punching and kicking cartoon no bloods ever gets spilled?or how human minions suddenly turn into robots who attack the heroes?i understand that they needed the robots to smash so it wouldnt be too gory for a childrens cartoon but what happened to all the soldiers? did they just resign or something?

at some stage in our life we become kinda sado-macho-pedophilic cos bloody cartoons make us laugh.oh well a filler for the day.

i think one of the most effective ways of judging you career is to look at satire cartoons,though,hence:

looks like people just LOVE lawyers dont they.=.= expect that kind of feedback in the future.oh well..i dont even knw if ill practise.

i am a man

2010-06-03T05:51:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wish i wasnt that much of a girl so i wouldnt get distracted by clothes and shoes and stuff and actually buy them ( luckily i dont have expensive taste all my clothes fall ard 20-30 range,would never dream of spending 50+ on a dress or shoes.

on another note law dinner is coming up( after law camp),i think the seniors know we miss prom or just wanted to give us another chance to experience something prommish.i alrd know what im gonna wear ( nothing crazy or cool like the last prom,just a white dress) but i dont have the shoes to go with it T.T so time to get around spending my mom's c&k voucher i guess.mom told me not to get heels that are too high and i personally know ill fall within 5 steps but sometimes the designs are so nice :/ omg i wish i could stop being a girl I AM A MAN.

im looking at this and this

good thing i am not boy crazy too,that incident in JC1 really cemented my perspective that mulling over boys is a waste of time.i got better things to do with my life than mine,for example,be a multimillionaire goddes bwahhaha!

michelle's farewell

2010-05-31T04:36:00.000-07:00

organized farewell for this silly doofus who is migrating to new zealand to rear cow and sheep and be a super magnifico doctor a la creme of de crop.thats yk and wenzhen in the background.check out the photos in facebook!

the Cake that Launched a Thousand Controversies.Is it worth $55? OR IS IT NOT??? no one will ever know.

what matters is that it makes michelle happy and tastes gooooooood.bees and my mom's beehoon in the background!

some people very unappetisingly compared the chains of the railway and the top part of the train to shit.very artistic and tasteful a comment i must say.no matter.it is TASTY SHIT.

oh! and got chased back home by my boss cos i was sick today.ate medicine and came to work anyway,but the silly receptionist lied that it was anti drowsy and i fell asleep.-.-so paiseh.so went home,slept,finished my dan brown book and blogged.

2010-05-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

i want to:

visit pixar( $21)
buy a polaroid camera and film( $100+?)
see the doctor for my sore throat( $20)
buy a stationary bicycle( few hundred)
new clothes to replace old clothes
nice food( swensens ice cream)
toothpaste ( the good kind,i have braces and sensitive teeth)
present for my mom's birthday
go to UK live with my stepsis( abt $2-3K in expenses? )
read law( $8890 x4+7% GST)
masters in anthropology(? + overseas accom)
drink alot of coffee bean and starbucks

ALL WHICH COST ALOT>.<

by not reading medicine i save alot does that count.and i thnk i need a new bicycle alrd the law campus is like 1km away from the bustop and the bustop is like 1km away from my house T.T

need to save money! i shall bring my own food to work haha.there is like alot of leftover pasta anyway...for some reason my mom's new hobby includes cooking and buying copious amounts of food and soybean milk.granted it tastes nice but i keep thinking about food now!-.-

THREE ALPHABETS

2010-05-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

...that can make my day :)

i would like to end here dramatically,but i must say law really chuck u with a lot of things.free magazine and stuff until the brown package so thick.zzz

2010-05-26T04:37:00.000-07:00

count on my mom to downplay my achievements and make me feel like shit again.wow,so many people accepted ah? oh of course it is very commonplace for students to get into law and medicine!it requires NO EFFORT at all,besides being a bum,slacking,not wearing the clothes that i bought like eons ago,turning on the air con for too long,having high phone bills and all the other inadequacies that i have.wow i got in cos of LUCK and not because i put in any effort at all,this must be perfectly true.i actually wrote "baa baa black sheep" as the only words in my essay,i think it got switched!in fact i must be incredibly stupid to be rejected by medicine!im such a fucking idiot right i should have known the name of the health minister,my application for other faculties,have a reason for not having a hospital attachment,the entire medical curriculum as well as medical current affairs and demonstrate them within a span of five seconds!

i have been a failure all my life of course and due to your curses i shall die a failure,overworked by my futile life long desires to be successful in life.ive failed to get into my dream sec sch,my dream jc and my dream university course.i dont have a talent that i can brag about.i have flawed academic results.i speak too fast and too vulgar.I am anal retentive.I have no love for the Singapore system.I am critical of myself and everyone around me.I am sensitive.Tell me to be contented,compared to the fucking african children,well,then it is the same as telling me not to have any expectations.dream big and get screwed real time.

why cant i be content with just FASS.i was so content in the beginning why did i change my mind to join the rat race.why cant i just be stupid so i can truly be a failure and do some rubbish job to get by.

2010-05-25T23:30:00.000-07:00

Saw the Ms Singapore 2010 finalists on tiakhui's fb.nightmares.Apparently this is some sort of high fashion shoot using ah lian styles (the floral trend and the checkered trend, for the record I own neither of these type of clothes, no not even little miss dunnowhatfuck shirts) im not saying that they are ugly or anything, but I look at them and I just don’t think Singapore universe. They just look downright awkward. Very few people can pull off the sourpuss high fashion look, sometimes the X factor is something you are born with ( u know those people who can NEVER take a bad photo). If they cant carry off that type of beauty, then don’t force it. Honestly, I think it would look much nicer if they just sat in nice dresses and looked all smiley and pretty rather than doing poses imitating that of clothes hangers.

Someone who can be charming in person may not show it in photos.(speaking from experience,im extremely unphotogenic and vice versa. However I think marketing wise…it is very important for someone in the media industry to be photogenic and telegenic. In fact photogenic comes first because they need your photos to market the event to the mass crowd.

Somehow I think Ms Singapore just faded off the radar when it wasn’t shown on national television. Im ashamed that we are one of the countries who do that cos it just means we don’t celebrate feminine beauty ( and brains apparently but lets not get started on that) anymore. With Ris Low and bunches of other disgusting bimbos out there I can see why some people think we should just give Ms Singapore up.
Im so appalled and disgusted,I think I shall go vomit out my overpriced chicken rice later.SHEESH.

10 year plan

2010-05-25T02:14:00.001-07:00

at my workplace now,watching someone opposite me get having a lovely conversation with her boss :)

not 100% happy but at last my life GOT FUTURE.

For the next ten years of my life

4 years LLB (hons)
1 year Bar Exam
5 years of working in a normal law firm.in entertainment law/criminal law/maritime law/aviation law/international law/icantdecidebecauseineverexpectedtogetin law.
RETIRE AT 30.
travel the world and do charity work for a year,get married( OR NOT HAHA),buy flat.
I hope i can squeeze in a part time degree in animation/character design so i can get in touch with my drawing stuff.in any case if i dont i shall do it when i retire at 30.
become a legal consult/animator for a animation company such as scrawl studios ( like the only one in sg which is half decent).which means i must make more animator friends because i need flexibility if i want to combine my expertise with my interest.

u can see where i am coming from the entertainment law interest because entertainment law would gain me contacts and experience in the media industry while still staying comfortably within the legal zone.( im not too good with dealing with difficult people or blurry lines haha).

law wise i think it is not worth it to take degree in both law and life sciences why stress myself so much.maybe a minor in life sciences would be more tolerable but not matching.i think to accomodate my future career,if i could squeeze in a minor it would be in communications( think animation and drawing related stuff) and sth sciency to balance out my bio withdrawalism( i would still kind of miss science,bio is the reason why i came to nyjc even though i was never very good at biology).I would like forensic science but it is really popular and just not feasible.

so there goes my ten year plan i cant wait to start.of course if NUS law suddenly does not want me *horrors!*,i get accepted into a Japanese Scholarship for dentistry( haha mr neo forwarded a scholarship for japan around,if i went overseas to a foreign language country to study it would be for dentistry rather than medicine cos med is 7 years -.- then why didnt i put dentistry as second choice instead of law? well dentistry is just not feasible,no point wasting my choices and taking such a big risk.law is more of smoking skills which i am better at so generally i had more confidence of passing the law interview than the medicine.but then this is a pointless paragraph as im highly unlikely to apply for the scholarship or accept it as i have to learn everything in japanese!argh!) or NUS med has a positive reply towards my appeal.UK university options are still open though.

NUS law honestly,for me,just fell into my lap.i got really nice interviewers who didnt purposely try to intimidate me or ask any loop the loop questions.the essay,although hard and in a foreign format ( like more of critical thinking skills,ten times harder than GP) was on BIOLOGY,ecological concerns the like so biology students would have a bigger advantage imo.In contrast with the medicine interview,this is really much more of a breeze to me.I dont know if i really deserve it,because i dont know if i want it in the first place.

still being chosen out of the 800 students shortlisted,all brilliant,all eloquent,all intelligent,all with better CCA records,it is really like wow,you know.i guess all that talking nonsense really paid off! :)Although i do expect to face a lot of competition haha.

i heard from a teacher( a really bald one) that the frequency of NYJC-ians going to law is even lower than that of med.but looking at the caliber of Arts students in NY ( sorry lah,but the results are undeniable,science students totally pwn arts.perhaps besides econs where there are a substantial number of mugger science students )

I have mixed feelings towards my choices.Inevitable,i think i already knew deep down what the result would be like.but i would still be hoping for the best,of course.for a miracle that would never happen.well,welcome to reality,when you screw up.you really do screw up,but that doesnt mean it is the end of life for you.

what a relief

2010-05-24T18:54:00.000-07:00

here is my screenshot confirming my status to accept NUS law.guess i know where im going now,at least.not getting med is a bit of a downer since im more interested in it than law...but well i guess i should be appreciating what i was given cos at least im not a dime in the dozen plus a really nice albeit isolated campus to boot! ( its the bukit timah campus besides botanic gardens) but it is still a nice surprise anyway because i got rejected by SMU for law.

well,if i dont change my mind,this is how my name will read in the future.

Goh Min Ling, NUS L.L.B. ( Hons)

or something like that lah.haha :)

rottingus phoenixus drosophilia obnoxious

2010-05-22T00:36:00.000-07:00

congratulations to wenzhen for getting the NTU scholarship! now go kick the asses of the nasty PRC nerds! ching chang chong ching chang ding dong ka ping pong pang pong king kong!

nostalgia critic

2010-05-18T05:56:00.000-07:00

nuh-uh been hooked on the nostalgia critic recently,this really drama guy on theguywiththeglasses.com he is like ten times better than xiaxue( i think she writes ok on weblog but doesnt really have that much of a personality in real life and she is really boring as a video show host..aiyah i just dont like her and dont get why so many people do.but that is another post for another day.) get him to talk about anything under the sun and the way he hyperventilates is like just damn funny.it also can be seen that alot of effort has been put into the production of the video,right on to the spoofs and stuff,really professional web entertainment. (*cough* which singapore is an epic fail *cough*)

i mean,just look at his face.doesnt it glow with the joy and serenity of the setting sun?doesnt the artfully designed outfit convey an air of professionalism?

i feel like locking my blog,it is turning up on too many search engines.lock? or not to lock?would-it-be-wise-to-lock-an-un-locked-blog-if-the-locker-could-lock-blogs?why the heck am i talking to myself,there is no one there in cyberspace.

2010-05-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

wow,i realized i just wasted 2 years of my life in Junior College.when i look back i think.what have i learned?what have i gained and i feel like.not one bit did i pursue my passion,all the learning experiences were meaningless and all the academic slogging only leaves one jaded.

i just wish i had realized it sooner.

OH NO HE DIDNT!!!!

2010-05-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

Hun: This is some nice steel ... ( referring to his sais,not the device) How about telling me who gave them to you.

Raphael: YOUR MAMA.

BADASS!

2010-05-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

i know worrying doesnt help anything but i just cant help it so worried :( espc now i have nothing much to do at home i just continue worrying and stuff.

got invited to some lee kong chian tea session.zz.i think i have no fate with smu honestly,doubt ill go.

2010-05-15T00:29:00.000-07:00

i heard that sometimes may take up to may for the uni to accept you and for some people,just before matriculation.oh the horror and terror D:i shall stop the checking my joint application status three times a day in vain thing and concentrate on my other frivolous tasks at hand.

general education modules are quite awesome in NUS cos we get to study absolutely useless things to develop us into well rounded individuals (i.e. vessels of useless fact) but some are quite awesome,like the ones i highlight below.

GEK1045 Introduction to World Religions
Offered by Office of Programmes
Modular Credits: 4
Workload: 2-1-0-0-7
Prerequisite(s): Nil
Preclusion(s): Nil
Cross-listing(s): Nil
This course offers an introductory survey of major religious traditions of the world, with specific
focus on Hinduism, Buddhism, Confucianism, Daoism, Judaism, Christianity, and Islam. We will
examine the origin and historical development of each tradition, along with its sacred texts, basic philosophical and metaphysical ideas, values and social ideals, patterns of ritual and worship, and specialised institutions. Our goal is to provide an objective understanding of each tradition on its
own terms, and secondarily, an introduction to the academic study of religion. This is an
introductory course, and all students are welcome.

GEK2022 Samurai, Geisha, Yakuza as Self or Other
Offered by Department of Japanese Studies
Modular Credits: 4
Workload: 2-1-0-2-5
Prerequisite(s): Nil
Preclusion(s): Nil
Cross-listing(s): Nil
This module challenges the foundation of human knowledge. Examining cultural icons from
Japan’s past and present we will unpack the assumptions, stereotypes, narrative strategies, and
visualising techniques of representing Japan. Students will probe one or more of Japan’s three
famous cultural icons — the samurai, the geisha, and/or the yakuza — as they appear in
literature, visual and performance arts, and academic writings. By the end of the module students will not only have a richer understanding of the ‘realities’ behind such icons, but more
significantly, they will be equipped to challenge stereotypes of Japan presented by journalism,
popular culture, and the humanistic and social sciences. Ultimately such discovery will lead
students to question their own knowledge of self and other. Students should refer to the module
IVLE page for details of the selected icon(s) for the current semester.

GEK1542 Forensic Science
Offered by Department of Biological Sciences
Modular Credits: 4
…530…
Workload: 2-1-0-3-4
Prerequisite(s): Nil
Preclusion(s): Nil
Cross-listing(s): Nil
The module is designed to provide students with general knowledge of a special branch of
scientific inquiry of interest to the legal system as well as the social sciences such as archaeology.
Experts from law, pharmacy, statistics, the Health Sciences Authority and the Singapore Police
Force will cover topics related to forensic science. The main topics include an introduction to the
laboratory set-up of the Centre for Forensic Science, which handles DNA profiling, testing of
body fluids and blood, paternity testing and database information; death investigation by the
Centre of Forensic Medicine; handwriting analysis and questioned documents, toxicology and
identification of illegal drugs.

2010-05-14T02:09:00.000-07:00

i wish someone would hurry up and update my joint application status alrd,geez.i need to know what to do.and i found out from the fb page of NUS med 2010 that the prissy *JC girl who was behind me in the interview line got in! D: not that i dont like her lah,since she offered me candy and all ( i am easily appeased) but it says a lot of the type of people i will encounter there.if i even get accepted-.-

and i dont really like it when people go,aiyah sure get in one lah! can de lah! you will get into nus med! like fuck you are God meh.i know its encouragement but i just dont like people to lie lah.so what if i got not bad results,it doesnt mean i will get into every single course i want.everyone there has a freaking AAA/A AA which is already half the battle won.and plus the interview must be a breeze with all the bulking up of their portfolios and aid from their extremely experienced seniors.

having second thoughts about fass as it is nth applicable to real life.gosh i sound so bitter.

and for writing's sake,some reflections upon some courses which i decided not to have a part in.

fashion&media- as much as i like looking at alexander mcqueen collection and pretty model photogs and yearn to own a grey-black louis vuitton messenger bag,honestly i just dont get the industry.dont you ever read urban one day and go omg this is really ugly and that stylist really looks like a fag.

ive noticed that doctors and lawyers are humourously always at a feud with each other since my medicine interview.it is kind of amusing somewhat.like the recent argument btwn walter woon the ****talking ex attorney general and Lee Weiling ,head of the neuroscience institute over the Tang 's illegal liver transplant case.you can read it here : http://feedmetothefish.blogspot.com/2008/09/g-vs-mms-daughter-no-one-is-above-law.html

walter woon's reply: http://www.agc.gov.sg/docs/HOTA-080905.pdf

even my med interviewer,while questioning me about euthanasia,did not bother to hide his contempt that the euthanasia article was written by the law society when i mentioned that i felt the article was biased because they only showed the views of lawyers who were anti-euthanasia and none who were pro euthanasia,almost encouraging to public to go with the train of thought.smarter ones would ponder on the opposing issue,but with the overwhelming imbalance of information on both sides of the table,well,we will know what the majority would lead to.

ART BINGE :D

2010-05-11T01:32:00.000-07:00

badly taken pictures of what i have drawn thus far.geez i hate not having a scanner.dont do my effort justice!

basically the teenage mutant ninja turtles in human form! (cos i cant draw turtles) finally got out of this art drag which has been going on for years...

donatello!

and michelangelo (michealangelo? mikealangelo?) i havent confirmed his look yet.:/ i guess just have to wait then.i mean for the happy guy there can be alot of different styles.

been going through a total artsy lag for years and years not touching photoshop...etc....now in my gloom of possibly being rejected from both medicine and law i have found solace in watching cartoons ( not korean dramas mind you seriously they all look the same).I bet if i was a US guy i would have been a comic book geek :D and one of the co-creators of super man! or kick-ass!okay maybe not the latter.finally got myself to go on a paper wasting rampage.

today's animation

2010-05-09T03:33:00.001-07:00

boredom results with me watching episode after episode of teenage mutant ninja turtles.good old 2D animation is really awesome.i wish i could pursue my drawing stuff but oh well it should be an aside thing :P

i love all the turtles but personality wise i think closest to me would be raphael ( hot tempered and sarcastic guy) and michelangelo( the joker).sometimes i tend to get irrationally pissed off and swear even though i dont show it often,mostly when im by myself than i am reminded of such negativity.but otherwise im fine cracking a lame joke ( or ten dozen ) with my friends.but it depends on who they are.

weapons wise,i prefer the pole cos well i just dont like two handed stuff HAHA.not good with my hands.

when i earn alot of money in the future,i think i will start collecting weapons.I read an article in the straits times recently about subhas anandan a local criminal lawyer who collects sword because they are a symbol of power or to "threaten clients who did not pay his legal fees XD"

i seriously wonder what has come of today's animation.seriously sucky with all the 3D.i mean,jimmy neutron??even the 2D shows nowadays are ruined by the modern touch..the animation is just too perfect for me.it doesnt make sense but the animation becomes less human.

sometimes it just feels really good to blog what is on your mind so that u can examine your thoughts from a more detached perspective.feels more organized too.well i guess blogs are just technology-derived versions of the pensieve :P

2010-05-08T19:53:00.001-07:00

this new development does not bode well.
the closing date for revising choices is over.
one of my choices has suddenly turned upon itself and gone,another is delayed.
i have to be prepared to choose either business or FASS i think.

minling's salary guide of the modern era+ law interview

2010-05-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

i didnt know my recent cut and paste post on salary would generate such furore with people asking me and discussing with me online about salary and stuff.i sincerely thought that most of my peers.so yeah instead of spamming my own tagboard i would just say what i know and hopefully provide a guide of what your salary is like in the future.Do not quote me on this! the market is volatile!and i cant be bothered to provide links to justify my knowledge there is always google go do it yourself!

do not trust certain published salary guides! their pay is wayyy to high.

Firstly i shall discuss science and tech cos most of my peers are in the science stream.medicine is obviously thought to be the tops but it is a long hard slog to the top.Not only do you have to complete five grueling years of medical school and one year of inhumane housemanship,you are also bonded to the government for five years,when you break bond,it is at a price of 5k/month,hence 60k per annum.

the housemanship i heard is really inhumane.house officers have to do the sai kang work,like checkups and stuff while getting paid 2.5k a month(compared to aussie abt 5.5k)they also have to cover for the doctors that go home and some end up staying until 5am the next day and not having a day off for two months straight.this is information i got from relatives and forums,but from the consistency of the complaints i think it is true.after the five year bond you can start to get further education...specialize and stuff. though surgeon ave is 25k bt it varies vastly from no. of hours doctors work and nature of specialization.for example gastrointestinal and cardio would earn more than paeds and geriacs

Pharmacy the average starting pay is the highest among the FOS( 3k plus),because it is a specialized profession unlike life sci which is more general.plus pharm people are usually med and dentistry rejects and are probably smart ass but fell short anyway. or smart ass people who are afraid of blood and gore.the main scope of your job is to sit in watsons all day looking bored and playing iphone while distributing clarinase randomly to sniffly users.and get paid.though the better paying ones are usually in hospitals.yet pharm can get boring and monotonous and repetitive and not recognized as a specialty( don worry engineers go through the same shit),unless u do research and stuff,which i would reccomend u get a pharmacy phD.since we dont really need so many researchers actually...

the rest of the subjects in the sciences imo is only worth pursuing if u get 1st class hons and further ur studies.or else youll mostly likely end up doing something totally unrelated from your job when you graduate...then end up along the people who regretted their choice in uni.but then follow your heart! do something you like! dont whine about choice and embrace the challenges that life throws you! hurrah! hurrah! the writer is an obnoxious idiot!

more to come next time!

for more news on NUS salaries go here: http://www.moe.gov.sg/education/post-secondary/files/ges-nus.pdf

2010-05-06T06:18:00.000-07:00

brings me to the question:

wth is there worth studying in FASS?
econs is OUT OF THE WINDOW FOR ME cos i dont even take econs and i cant be bothered to catch up.and i am totally HUH????? after my friends are like asking me whether to take Bsc Econs or BA Econs like does it make a difference.and psychology grad have to study til a masters to get a miserable pay of 3k!!! OH NO.i might as well be a musician like my guitar teacher at AOR wah lao.or even a property agent.

and i realized if i actually kena the law degree ( which i really dont know since alot of my capable friends have missed out on it :( and i am really more keen on medicine but upon future thinking can i bear to let my mom bear such a cost..half a millionz) u can adorn ur name with a title! for example those phD people are called doctor blah,except they are the kind of doctor tt cannot cure people if i really do graduate

and if i rise to the position of partner..can collaborate with another person to set up my own law firm and perhaps hire a few accountancy graduate friends to do the setting up of company part.then can like partner with Dai Yang Tian ( who in my dream world is a lawyer too and stop laughing yes i think he is hot but still lose to jaejoong) and form a partnership Goh & Dai partnership( somehow the names just does not bode good luck).okay false dreams......

n my mom just called me fat again.im going to be totally anorexic and start counting my calories.oh how i wish i was skinny again D: now like weighing infinite tons.

2010-05-02T22:57:00.000-07:00

Top Median Gross Monthly Salaries (in brackets are the 75th-percentile salaries)

1.SMU Information Systems Management (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – $4,000 ($4,600) told you IT was profitable.i would be making big bucks if i was an it dude.sadly i am hopeless with technical jargon.
2.SMU Economics (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – $3,200 ($4,000)
3.SMU Economics (4-yr programme) – $3,000 ($3,763)
4.NUS Business Administration (Honours) – $3,000 ($3,600)
5.SMU Business Management (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – $3,000 ($3,500)
6.NUS Chemical Engineering – $3,000 ($3,500)
7.NUS Industrial & Systems Engineering – $3,000 ($3,450)
8.NUS Dental Surgery – $3,000 ($3,400)
9.NTU Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering – $3,000 ($3,300)
10.NTU Aerospace Engineering – $3,000 ($3,250)
11.NTU Arts (with Education) – $3,000 ($3,200)
12.NUS Information Systems – $2,975 ($3,250)
13.NTU Physics & Applied Physics – $2,950 ($3,000)
14.NUS Computer Engineering – $2,900 ($3,440)
15.NTU Chemistry & Biological Chemistry – $2,900 ($3,300)
16.NUS Computer Science – $2,900 ($3,290)
17.NTU Computer Science – $2,900 ($3,250)
18.NTU Science (with Education) – $2,900 ($3,200)
19.NTU Computer Engineering – $2,900 ($3,200)
20.NUS Mechanical Engineering – $2,900 ($3,200)
21.NUS Science (Honours) – $2,900 ($3,200)

honestly i dont believe all this salary hype.it is really circumstantial.even though teachers get higher starting pay,it plateaus like at 5-6k? and notice doctors are not on the list,that is cos they are busy slogging away in housemanship at a miserable 2.5k a month while clocking in 24/7 plus on call.that is even worse than a nurse.but then i suppose that is what initiation is about :/

The Dumping Grounds by Starting Pay (Gross Monthly)

1.NTU Art, Design & Media – $2,300 ($2,800)
2.NTU Accountancy (3-yr direct Honours programme) – $2,400 ($2,500)
3.NUS Business Administration (Accountancy) – $2,400 ($2,500)
4.NUS Applied Science – $2,500 ($2,500)
5.NUS Science – $2,500 ($2,600) test tube washers.i warned you.told u have to at least get a PhD to do proper research....everyone in a*star has a phD.seriously i went for the talk with my senior before.
6.NUS Arts – $2,500 ($2,600) i think the only thing feasible to study in the arts is economics and social science.the rest is bullcrap :O i mean what can u do with philosophy?literature? besides being a snotty aristocrat or teacher of course.but then so many people want to be teachers,i just want to be left out of the rat race.
7.NUS Business Administration (3-yr programme) – $2,500 ($2,700)
8.SMU Social Sciences (4-yr programme) – $2,500 ($2,850)
9.NTU Maritime Studies – $2,500 ($2,900)
10.SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) – $2,500 ($2,950)
11.NUS Nursing – $2,550 ($2,700)
12.NTU Environmental Engineering – $2,600 ($2,900)
13.NTU Communication Studies – $2,600 ($2,900)
14.NUS Real Estate – $2,600 ($3,000)
15.NUS Applied Science (Honours) – $2,600 ($3,000)
16.SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – $2,600 ($4,000)

Top Permanent Employment Rate (in brackets are the average salaries)

1.NUS Nursing – 100.0% ($2,568) yeah nurses are in shortage and pretty rare.it is not popular cos perhaps of the salary and association as being secondary roles in the healthcare industry (ancillary support side) but i guess it is meaningful if one is more compassionate and less ambitious.not like doctors who coldly diagnose stuff and move on.
2.NTU Science (with Education) – 100.0% ($3,030)
3.NTU Arts (with Education) – 100.0% ($3,109)
4.NUS Dental Surgery – 100.0% ($3,176) if i had no interest and had exemplary dexterity of my slender digits,i would go for this.but i am not good with microscopic operations ( okay lah mouth not very small but u know what i mean)
5.NTU Chinese – 98.0% ($2,756) cos no one wants to teach chinese XD
6.NUS Business Administration (Accountancy) – 97.1% ($2,448)
7.SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – 96.8% ($3,586)
8.NUS Computer Engineering – 95.7% ($2,890)
9.SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) – 95.3% ($3,073)
10.NUS Applied Science (Honours) – 94.7% ($2,674)
11.NTU Computer Science – 94.3% ($2,930)
12.NUS Material Science and Engineering – 93.8% ($2,880)
13.NUS Civil Engineering – 92.9% ($2,801) low intake rate and high demand? but then how much can you earn by coordinating traffic lights.LOL.for me engineering is.chem engine=oil! mech engine=car!handphone cover! aero engine=airplane/helicopter! civil=traffic lights! EE=handphone battery! was never very much of a technical person :S
14.SMU Economics (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – 92.6% ($3,606)
15.NUS Industrial & Systems Engineering – 92.5% ($3,099)
16.NUS Business Administration (Honours) – 92.1% ($3,389)
17.NUS Information Systems – 91.1% ($2,918)
18.NTU Civil Engineering – 90.8% ($2,769)
19.NTU Accountancy (3-yr direct Honours programme) – 90.0% ($2,529)

The Dumping Grounds by Employability

1.NTU Art, Design & Media – 61.7% ($2,431)
2.NUS Environmental Engineering – 63.2% ($2,667)
3.NUS Communication and Media – 70.8% ($2,536)
4.SMU Social Sciences (4-yr programme) – 72.0% ($2,613)
5.SMU Information Systems Management (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – 72.2% ($3,754)
6.SMU Social Sciences (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – 73.3% ($2,673)
7.NTU Materials Engineering – 75.3% ($2,745)
8.NUS Arts – 75.9% ($2,511)
9.NTU Environmental Engineering – 76.3% ($2,777)
10.NUS Science – 76.5% ($2,525)
11.NUS Computing – 76.9% ($2,841)
12.NUS Applied Science – 76.9% ($2,393)
13.NTU Physics & Applied Physics – 77.8% ($2,900)
14.NTU Communication Studies – 78.2% ($2,562)
15.NTU Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering – 78.6% ($2,990)
16.NTU Mechanical Engineering – 79.1% ($2,794)

out of boredom i baked a lemon cheesecake,practised guitar for my exam,scolded by teacher for random things,got nagged at by mum,watch a new legal drama DROP DEAD DIVA (only 13 episodes cant wait for the second season) in preparation for my law interview,yeah as if,and worried again about uni admission :/i have no letters yet! i think they will only come in mid may,after all the interviews are cleared.im left with the terrible thoughts that i would get rejected by all the unis i applied and left with my backupchoices ( namely,SMU business and FASS)

i have strategically positioned my choices to my merits,( yes the ultra power med-law combi,some may think im insane but i think pharm/dentistry dont really work for me so ya.and it would be revenge against ms ow for never letting me on the debate team.

2010-04-23T04:12:00.000-07:00

oh gosh

24th April) NYCO concert.i havent bought tickets and din go for helpers briefing due to being stuck in korea..
25th April)clear up my luggage by today.

8 May) NUS law interview and NYJC award thingy ceremony

a bit annoyed and worried that none of the unis i applied to have gotten back to me,but then aiyah alot of people also the same.makes me feel so lonely and unwanted.doesnt matter whetherthe news is postive or negative,just let me know the results so i can plan my subsequent route in life! sheesh,

since med interviews should be mostly over,ill post my extremely twisted POV of the medicine interview :D cos its thru forums that i got most of my prep done for med anyway.

fuckyeahmedicine xD

2010-04-14T04:23:00.001-07:00

HAHA i think i will be that joker :P

meanwhile wish me luck guys!off to korea till 22nd wooh!

death by apathy

2010-04-12T04:44:00.000-07:00

For years I was unsure if my calling was in the arts or sciences, as I appreciate the beauty of the former and the unwavering logic of the latter. Later I realized passion and profession may or may not be mutually exclusive, spherical creatures as humans are, such as in the case of Oliver Wendell Holmes, an acclaimed 19th century poet and physician.

Holmes was a medical reformer who promoted many practices taken for granted nowadays, such as the use of the stethoscope. Although his life was in an entirely different era, I feel that there are still lessons to learn from his experiences; for instance, the importance of a doctor to be flexible and adaptable to change, especially in the midst of the rapidly evolving technology of today’s world. Doctors are no longer a one-man team; they have to work hand in hand with pharmacists, bioengineers and a variety of other professions to improve service to their patients. All the mentioned occupations are essential to the clockwork of the healthcare industry, yet I feel that my individual interests and strengths make it more compelling to study medicine.

cool dude oliver wendell holmes.dunno wth he is posing(chinese dance?) but lookin fierce ! :D love the mustache and prom dress.

I stumbled upon holmes in a medical fiction book i was reading,The Bone Garden by Tess Gerritsen,who is Awesome.In the olden days( when men lived among dinosaurs) there isnt much distinction between the arts and the sciences,one can be free to practise another.but perhaps this was a more liberal system where knowledge was pursued for its own sake and not for profit.even this oliver dude took law for a year got sick of the bitchiness of law."I know not what the temple of law may be to those who have entered it, but to me it seems very cold and cheerless about the threshold." must be those stern faced judges and their ugly wigs.i am guessing that holmes walked into court,burst out laughing at the judges looking like drag queens in monk robes and was subsequently expelled forevermore.woe betide you oliver!

i got attacked at this part( last part of first paragraph) about why i want to be the doctor,the people evilly planted suggestions of changing healthcare which i stupidly agreed and straightway they questioned the influence of doctors on health care.i forgot what i said to defend myself but i doubt it was coherent -.-

i am quite sure these two professions,while profitable,do not suit me at all.firstly i feel i am not technical enough to do bioengineering,my inquiring mind gets stifled by the limitations of something as technical as machines and the laws of physics.Secondly as much as i research about pharmacy i find that it does not suit me.The merits of the profession are not worth the content( usually i would not consider my strength to be in content based subjects but if it is worth it i would put in the effort).

I have personally experienced the loss of a family member to a chronic illness once-my father, to a long, drawn-out neurodegenerative disease. I can only imagine the blow he must have faced when the doctor told him he only had a few years left, and the courage and selflessness taken to settle the financial affairs of his two children and wife so that they would be not be disadvantaged in any way in the event of his passing.

I was informed by my mother, perhaps for simplicity’s sake, that the doctor had withdrawn the medicine that kept my father alive. I directed my childish frustration and anger towards this unknown persona, purely for the reason of wanting someone to blame. It is part of what moulds my perspective of a doctor, to be an epitome of hope to those who seek help, but may also risk disappointing his patients. It was not until I had progressed to a more mature stage of life that I eventually “forgave” this doctor-no one is omnipotent and there are countless mysteries of science which man has yet to unravel.

no lah i didnt really hate the doctor but a little exaggeration doesnt hurt no.the paramedics were more irritaing cos they couldnt find my house -.- and the two skinny dicks didnt have enough strength/experience to help.

I want to be able to seek the cure to diseases that plague the well-being of so many families, even though it seemed an impossible task then to the young girl of eleven. I am aware of the consequences that lie ahead, I hold no delusions to the wealth and sensationalism the profession may portray to some. I hope the medicine community in NUS would be able to give me this chance to empower the lives of others, as it is such an attribute that makes the life of a doctor so appealing, not only to me but also my equally talented and determined peers.

this part is actually an extra addition after writing everything.decided to be humble.everyone there is smarter anyway.assholes.i mean,i really have resentful feelings towards people from certain schools.just because your school is one of the best doesnt mean you are God's Holy Child Where Every Chair You Sit On Turns into Gold.means tt u are an extremely expensive ass if you are anyway *snorts air through nostrils arrogantly*

What marvels me about the medical profession is the diversity it offers, the multiple fields that one can specialize in whether they find themselves interested laboratory research or having exemplary agility of the fingers to perform complicated surgery. It is indeed a science in content and an art in execution, a challenging subject for the unbiased mind. I cannot absolutely deny or confirm which field I want to specialize in as I believe the journey in medical school is one of self-discovery. Yet I cast no doubt that it is indeed a meaningful profession as one does not merely talk about the religion of love, but puts it into practice.

my neighbour is a researcher who got fed up with the local medical system cos they really abuse doctors and housemen and encouraged me to go overseas,especially to aussie.(severe shortage of doctors perhaps?) researching is much more relaxed at least she has regular hours and can bitch with colleagues.money is not too bad too.and she told me that doctors have really soft hands,they must really take care of their hands to treat patients.

i got this part from a quote from an ex-preacher.He said he felt helpless while promoting christianity and empowering people but unable to alleviate their physical suffering,so he decided that the art of medicine was more useful.wow this is a christian i really respect,recognizing the limitations of religion and actually doing something about it.O Holy Father you are an inspiration! :D

haha I think i will be assasinated by christians tonight.

2010-04-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

remember this? THE HAND OF HOPE that first became popular more than a decade ago- 1997.

A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of the Year,” or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the paper, you probably will never see it. The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by a surgeon named Joseph Bruner.

The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.

During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. During the surgery on little Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed, hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.”

Little Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture.

She said, “The photo reminds us my pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person” “The Hand” of the fetus. You can see the actual picture, and it is awesome…incredible.

Pass it on.. The world needs to see this one.

i should leave

2010-04-10T09:51:00.001-07:00

i think no one would miss me anyway.

Letters.

2010-04-10T09:39:00.000-07:00

572 pgviews.

I would like to know if anyone is reading because i wonder if i should venture to more private issues.

to mom:
i dont really care what you look like,no need to waste money on facials or all that crap anyway.

to friends:
thank you to those who have stayed.
you are my motivation to learn and progress.putting a light to my smile.
for those who left,i hope you rot in hell.

to singapore:
I admit that you are well and fine,but i feel that i need a change.there are too many disappointments for me here,perhaps partly my own fault.My life has never been smooth sailing,but i still challenge myself,set high expectations and sometimes i wonder if it is even worth it when i see my peers cruising through their wishes.Im just holding on tightly to my boat in hope that the waves would finally subside and I would be content with my achievements and what I have thus far.For now i feel like i have done nothing.fine,chide me for being spoiled,but beind ridiculously unsuccessful in my scholarly endeavours makes me disillusioned and critical.Maybe it is time to leave,or stop and do some soul searching.

to my future clients:
I hope to help and i will do my best.
I might disappoint.
but.I understand if i do and i will show my deepest condolences.
I hold the weight of expectations on my shoulders,such that it crushes me
Look up,child.
there is still hope to overcome adversity.

***

I cant even hold my head up high.

i dont see what is so awesome.

2010-04-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

my mom told me if i really wanted to study medicine she would sell the flat.lol.
the bishan masionette( block 286,mine is block 287) beside my block sold for a record of 900,000.if i dont rmb wrongly our flat sold for 500,000 and market prices are on the rise lets hope they continue rising.we wont live beside our grandparents anymore,but hopefully some where near.

my options now.
1) join michelle in new zealand to study medicine/health sciences in uni of auckland
I estimated the costs around 350,000

2) my neighbour said tt nz is not good for med her colleagues usually come from aussie universities.UK is expensive,even though with my results i can probably get into a uni better than NUS for medicine,it is not my fault everyone here is so smart. so she advised uni of melbourne or flinders.I read that they are offering grants for students studying medicine overseas so as to attract them back to SG ( about time dont you think) so i guess it would make it more attractive :)

3)continue with law in SMU/NUS ( i am marginally more confident of doing better in law than medicine for interview) and see if i like it.i spoke to some students at the open house it quite discouraged me over taking law as some of them are disillusioned as well.

4) make up for my disastrous interview with a awesome essay and enter NUS med ( the best option but unlikely)

2010-04-09T09:17:00.000-07:00

Ill post up my interview answers and questions for prospective med students as well as curious people who want to know what the interview is about once i get back from my korea trip :) meanwhile i shall mug for the essay test! :) haha from the past year questions i think it is a cross between GP and KI.

my med interview

2010-04-08T02:35:00.000-07:00

initiated conversation with some of the peeps in the waiting place,cos i was bored and had to wait 1.5 hours.found out that they were hwa chong/ RJC -________- two half an hour interviews back to back!

Did you consult any seniors abt the life of medicine?

I have no seniors in medicine because i am from NYJC ( where our world record was 2 med students)However i did consult neighbours and relatives* recites inspirations and experiences*

why do you really want to be a doctor?What makes you think you will be a good doctor?( u mean my personal statement sounded like a lie to you? SOBS I WAS SO SINCERE) Do you want to change the healthcare system?

Yes i want to make it more efficient as i feel that it can be improved.(hurriedly agreed because i didnt know how to answer the other part of the question and i needed more time to think)I also feel that doctors are the symbol of hope for many people,they are who people go to for help when in need.

I feel that i am the sort of person that will thrive in medical school as it is mentally challenging and I enjoy such subjects.Also in my environment of equally passionate and driven peers,it would inspire me and make me work harder.We are not in it for the money or the prestige,but because of the passion for helping others.

But as a doctor u cant change the healthcare system.If you want to change it might as well be the minister for health.

i forgot what i answered but i rmb thinking err if doctors have no say in healthcare system wont they go on strike????and minister of health u appoint me lah,ill make it a point to let all doctors suffer.I think i said healthcare lies more within my interest or smth like that.

What are some of the strengths and weaknesses that may help or hinder you in being a medical professional?

For my weakness,I feel that i am a shy person hence I may have difficulties communicating with my patients.However,I am learning to break out of my comfort zone as I took a sales job during my holidays where I actually had to approach strangers and cold call people and that helped me overcome my shyness.

I feel that i am an emphathetic person.because i have lost a family member from an illness i would be able to understand the suffering of my patients and help them recover emotionally.When a person is affected by an illness,it not only affects him,but his entire family so I would advise them to explain their children because as a child I did not know about my father's terminal illness,hence I misunderstood my mother and blamed the doctor for my fathers death.

Isnt that the job of a medical social worker? You also said that doctors are part of a team in your personal statement?Shouldnt you leave it to them to do the job and just diagnose the illness and move on to the next patient? Doctors cant do everything you know.

I feel that the roles are not always singular,they may overlap* insists that doctors must show compassion and i will do my best to also show that i care for the welfare of my patients as doctors are an epitome of hope to patients.doctors muz be flexible!

Do you read newspapers?

I try..i read mind your body ( for some reason they laughed at this part-.-)

They asked abt a liver transplant frontpage news.

Err....i dont really remember

asked abt some more stuff that I DON REMEMBER,went around in circles until we reached the topic of euthanasia.YES YES YES.but then i ruined the chance by insulting the singapore press holdings on their biased report on euthanasia.and they told me actually the report is from law society.=.= then i fuzzily remember some current affairs stuff,ask me abt healthcare issues.

There is this recent dispute on the allocation of wards even though there may be sufficient wards inefficient allocation...blah blah patient dissatisfaction...blah blah more wards built...

What do you want to specialize in?

Psychiatry.cos of my dad died of a disease tt affected nervous system blah blah.

I suppose it is unfair to ask you,but...* asks how would i act if my patient was suffering and his family and him approached me to ask for euthanasia.*

Euthanasia is not allowed in singapore =.=
( ian told me to answer: bring him overseas and kill him)

what about pain relief? morphine causes depression etc...

I would clearly explain the consequences of adminstering morphine to the patient and his family and let him have the choice of taking the morphine and risking the side effects or living with the pain.I would also advise his family members to give him alot of psychological and moral support throughout his last days.*rambles on*

What do you think are the consequences of the ageing population?

I feel that it brings about a whole new set of diseases which old ppl are susceptible...depression over being a family burden..so more psychological support needed to change mindset of these ppl ...dementia...*COUGH THAT IS WHY U NEED WANNABE PSYCHIATRISTS COUGH*...financial burden on their children..ppl are living longer....*rambles on abt ensuring quality of life*

What do you feel are some "modern" diseases?

I feel that in the developing world,we have progressed from problems such as famine to excess of food,hence the obesity crisis in the USA which is currently being rectified but the problem is not solved yet.For example the movie super size me illustrates how fast food restaurants like macdonalds is unhealthy.Fast food restaurants are also present in developing countries,whose residents may not be educated about the unhealthy side effects of fast food,so they may also face this obesity problem in the future.

I also feel in this image conscious society,eating disorders such as anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa would also occur more frequently.-*yes i know i am majorly contradicting myself.too fat and too skinny people plague the world-.-

2nd interview

There is a very interesting statement in ur PS.U mention tt you appreciate the arts and sciences?

yes.I was trying to decide i was in the art or sci person as due to the distinct streams in school.But i realized that people may not necessarily fall in one category,though i know people who cant write a humanities essay.tts is why i think the education system of having a contrasting subject is good.I think medicine is a science and art in itself.It is a science in content and an art by communicating with patients.

How did u do for lit?

I got B -_-

Name me a non curriculum book u have read recently.

Is fiction okay?*they nod*

Harvest by Tess Gerritsen.I like to read medical fiction.Its about the illegal harvest of organs for profit by abducting poor children from africa/developing countries.I feel that even though the issues may be sensationalized in fiction,the threat and inherrent fears are very real. .blah blah more blah.

Can you name me other authors? I would like to read them.

Yes,michael critchton that wrote jurassic park and tess gerritsen, lisa gardiner.TESS GERRITSEN ( had to repeat cos he wanted the name clearly.LOL BOOK CLUB :D)

ONLY two authors.why there must be many more *quotes examples,eg, arthur conan doyle,i thought u asked me to mention living authors only sia*

i <3 sherlock holmes

Err yes i enjoy reading them too.* sheepish*

Do you read the health ministers blog?
No.( like WHY WOULD I WHEN I CAN READ XIA XUE,the other interviewer also gave him a very pek cek look,I think he expected)

They asked me about the medicine curriculum,which i gave smokey answers.they then asked me to define biochemistry and physiology,to which of course i gave entirely wrong answers or half correct smokey answers. I could sense the pained expressions on their faces.T.T

What are the working hours of a house officer?

24/7 *they laugh*I spoke with some medicine students during open house i heard they sleep very little.

yes you are lucky if you can get one hour of sleep a day...Are you prepared for this?

Yes I am prepared.I feel that these are only physical barriers that one has to overcome to pursue their passion.As long as you are passionate about what you do,physical barriers r just sth u have t blah blah*yes i know i am repeating myself,rambles more*

Who is the health minister?

( omg wtf shit i never bothered) i dunno,i am sorry it slipped my mind *looks apologetic*

and worst of all when i was walking ut of the med interview,the prof was right behind me but i din notice so i straightaway told the next interviewee"got alot of things i dunno leh!!!!" =____= and i think he heard me like omgbbq.

plus i hemmed and hawed 100 times during the interview,repeated qns to myself such tt i sounded unsure,said i beg your pardon? at least 3 times.

Ill put in more qns whne i can rmb them.lol.

2010-04-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

to prospective medical students:

1) do up your portfolio if you are certain if getting shortlisted(one,maximum two Bs,the rest must be As guranteed,especially for BCM) because if you wait until you get shortlisted,you only have 2-3 FREAKING DAYS to do it.which is something that happened to me precisely cos i dont follow my own advice.
2) forewarn your targets about the referee letters( siew was on leave until the deadline :O oh noes just nice lor)luckily i kindasorta did it and there is this online referral thingy.
3) Prepare to make a trip down to NUS i foresee that the front office will be clogged as there is so limited time...
4) check your mailbox because they wont call you.they are not as nice as SMU.frankly i feel that they are trying to disqualify as many students as possible before sieving out the more doctor-inclined ones.
5) check your printer is spoilt/run out of ink or not.AND STAPLE YOUR STUFF IN THE CORRECT ORDER NOT LIKE ME WHO HAS TO RESTAPLE EVERYTHING AGAIN.GAAAH.

..please do notmake the same stupid blunders as me -_-

chionged out a personal statement that was said by some friends to be particularly touching.people who want to have a look at it email/sms/pm me :) and tell me your opinions.alrd printed out so prob no changes.

interview on thursday morning,ugh clashing with my guitar lessons again just like SMU law interview -.-

funny though that i was shortlisted for NUS med but not NUS law. maybe it is a law year,the COP is higher.geddit? law year=lawyer???? HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAH!!!!! damn,it must have been from watching too much annoying orange.but honestly though i think it is because they didnt want to spare too much manpower in the interviews? this one i not sure.

2010-04-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

ooh i am shortlisted for ******** but not for ***.but for *** in a another institution.hmm.i am probably going to *** but then i would rather prefer ********** even though it may be a lower paying job.but then just see how things go.

******************************************************************

:)

2010-04-01T07:14:00.000-07:00

I dont understand why parents must be so unsupportive when their kids have ambition.like who doesnt want their kid to be a ****** or ******,on the contrary forcing their kids to do something low paying and which they have no interest in at all.i dont see the point of being smart if i dont get any credit and if i cant get what i want.and i dont see how a trip to korea is a waste of money compared to the $1 spent on transport.i wish i was rich so i wouldnt have to worry about all this shit.

invisible people.

2010-03-23T10:21:00.000-07:00

my dreams have been telling me that i have unfulfiled wishes.chasing after buses with scary ex-bosses :/ sometimes as a fren noted,i have too high expectations.maybe i should start reflecting on what i see myself doing in the future.

i put alot of prestigious courses in my courses,they are really my areas of interest la.but i still dont fancy the idea of going into a course full of snobby rjc students who think they are God's Gift to the Education System rather than the product of a screwed up IP programme.

went to zhiwen's birthday party,kj and i shared her present( bought it with my chomel voucher and put in a poh heng jewelry box cos i couldnt find any box at home and i forgot to ask the chomel staff for one,good cos she will think we bought something super ex haha) and stupid kj and jon refused to reply my msg and i ended up going quite late and jon had to go off soon.=.= first experience playing wii,yush i am NOOB. but i ended up beating all the guys the the treesawing game,yay i am an excellent human vibrator.

cake tasted like wine to me -.- dunno what is wrong with my tastebuds that day!

its just so weird when you were friends once with someone and now you don't even say hi.im not saying anyone in particular,talking about friends that have crossed paths in your route of life,veering off course when you expected them to stay.

nothing you can do but gaze wistfully into the distance,shooting the occasional glance back.take care.

I wonder how many farewells i have to bid in this life.makes me really try and treasure what i have now.

2010-03-19T22:13:00.000-07:00

okay.submitted the NUS applications.hoping beyond what is possible..

cant make it for inteview tis fine.i hope i get what i want no matter how slim the chances are.
now for scholarship.or not.

still deciding whether to go zhiwen's birthday party :/ wanna go and free now tt i am jobless but quite far...and sure get lost there and on the way back =.=

portfolio.interviews.and the results will be released in late april?

Sorry for most of NUS applicants,the med/law people will be dragging your release of results time :/ cos of the multiple rounds of interviewwwssss... not complaining cos im one of them LOL.

wish I could jus fly away to oxford and study archaeology and anthropology.there is nothing i want to study in singapore.

decided to avoid business cos i realized( and mom insists) that being my own boss does not run in my blood,i just cant be bothered to pacify and suck up to people unless you are my close friend,and engaging in such formal niceties really makes me want to puke.unless it is on an international context (i.e. diplomat) then at least my job has some meaning...

2010-03-19T08:43:00.000-07:00

my mom wants me to give up NUS law interview for the planned korea trip from 15th-22nd :(

i really think i have a better chance of getting into law than..than...plus NUS law is much more prestigious and flexible than SMU law...mom insists that law is not right for me and since i dont have a burning passion for law ( like wtf who has ) i shouldnt go for it.but then i still think it is my best shot at a right future.

dont tell me to follow my heart.like how can you tell whether you like something without first experiencing it?

I can always insist to my mom that i want to back out of the korea trip,but somehow I would feel bad doing that as it is something i had promised her for ages :/ not a person who really values out-of-country time,frankly i think the money can be better spent(e.g. longer hours with the air conditioner on ...) ugh i really dont want to go.someone please take my place and pretend to be me!

went to Bloodbank@HSA today....got rejected cos they told me my blood pressure was too low..-_-

2010-03-16T11:04:00.001-07:00

i promise to change.

from now.

im not one to set goals but

im just sick and tired of uncertainties.procrastination.the heavy feelings that tug at my chest,a helmet that is being screwed tighter on my head every second..

why am i so greedy and selfish :(

memories.

2010-03-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

SOMETIMES I WUNDER.WHY SO MANY PEOPLE WANNA BE DOCTORS,LIKE SERIOUSLY GET LOST SO THAT PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO WANT TO BE FORENSIC PATHOLOGISTS AND DISSECT DEAD INNARDS CAN HAVE SPACE. BRAINS AND INTESTINES,BWAHAHHA.

1) oh,but i want to SAVE LIVES!!!!

SORRY DUDE BUT DOCTORS ONLY CURE 20% of their patients and hold off the symptoms for a slightly higher percentage :/

2) MOMMY/DADDY WANTED ME!!!!!!!!!!
its your life not theirs...YOU HAVE TO DIG YOUR HANDS THROUGH BLOODY INNARDS.AND PEOPLE WILL SUE YOU.

3) WORLD PEACE :3

........................................................

2010-03-15T08:57:00.001-07:00

omg what have i gotten myself into =..=

i foresee 6 interviews and 3 essays to be written.plus one of them is really scary,the Holy Mother of All Interviews.Expect to be Confunded,Confused and Utterly Afraaaaiiiiiddd.....i would be lucky if i did not pee in my pants :/ n nun of em are scholarship.NOOOONNE.if i want have to go more interviews.whut.

the things we do for dreams and money.meanwhile gotta brush up on my current affairs,its like prepping for n oral GP exam.... jus tt nw i hv roughly whut in mind theyll ask ;)

nehmind, TRY TRY TRY. or DIE DIE DIE.

WAHA.WISHES ME LUCK!!!!

2010-03-13T04:22:00.000-08:00

its not a dead route when u go into university,tt is what i must say.from all my research a forum scouting..:/

yday went to NUS open house,talked to a few people from medicine law ..and real estate????LOL i dun wanna sell property! the campus is not as bad as i thought though I may only be seeing the new side though haha.

after tt went for Astar talk to accompany a friend,met many hwa chong potential scholars who freaked me out.but overall the talk was quite informative,gave insights about life overseas.and also made me more determined not to be a bonded scholar.I mean,can u imagine the pressure to produce results when they have paid for your education for 8 years? I didnt miss the note of worry in the scholar's voice when he talked about how his project was failing.Science is not a thing we can really control,it also boils down to luck and not all can be successful.

I think the path for me has become more clear now...thanks loads to the people i talked with.you shouldnt give up on a dream when it becomes impossible.

Im on the verge of shaving my head if i really do get into the course that I want or i may take a gap year to think things out and get contacts.please oh God/Buddha/Allah give me your blessings!

2010-03-11T08:28:00.001-08:00

im surprised and touched about the people who were proud of me though i did not get the perfect score i was aiming for.ms kwok...my aunt and uncle...random people who congratulated me...thanks for all your help.my head is really aching from uni decisions -_-

i felt crushed when i saw that B on my cert for the subject i was the most confident in,that i fought so hard to take in jc and had to take a special timetable which isolated me somewhat from my class(i was initially posted to econs i had to argue with the HOD to get me into h2 lit),even more so when many of my classmates gt 6As and i wasnt part of them.if only i had done a bit better,pushed jus little bit more,was more disciplined and didnt slack so much,didnt involve myself in so much non academic shit,took up the h3 that they offered me in j1,had much more SENSE in making decisions and thinking about the future rather than not being bothered at all.if only,if only...

God i probably sound like whiny bitch.

2010-03-11T00:35:00.000-08:00

mr neo said that.bio students cannot fail GP.

cos the only thing that dun emphasize on GP is engineering and bio students CANNOT do engineering cos they dun take physics ( lousy sub combi and lousy contrasting subject system).

which is why...

haiz.

thankful for the A.even though i may not have deserved it.( wasted 15 min planning for the wrong essay,i think i wrote slightly out of point and din finish compre :( )

and indicative grade profiles are assuming u got a C for GP and PW which mean whew if i come under the IGP i still have a teeny chance...

2010-03-10T03:38:00.000-08:00

i need an ang moh name.wenzhen suggested like doing sth similar to my current chinese name like wenzhen=wendy .HAHA SO WEIRD COS I ALRD KNOW A WENDY AND THEY ARE NTH LIKE EACH OTHER -_- if so minling=mindy or sth cos some of my non chinese frens call me Min when they are unable to pronounce my real name.bt it sounds so weird when ppl call me by mindy.

conversation with sharon

you eh? why lawyer? xD
<やおい様> not good enough says:
I DUNNO
i jus wanted to challenge myself i tink
and biz is quite general
i went back to sch wif boonbin
then mr neo psycho us take life sci
boonbin initially wna take chem de.then now he kena psychoed.i also psychoed abit
Say it three times fast. Shoes with Soft Soles says:
HAHA xP
what did he say man?
<やおい様> not good enough says:
wah lao why am i so confused now??? initially i was quite set on FASS DE????
Say it three times fast. Shoes with Soft Soles says:
why do you want to take life sciences
seriously
other than Mr Neo
<やおい様> not good enough says:
http://forum.brightsparks.com.sg/showthread.php?t=2385 read when u have time...
hmm
he said it is a more versatile degree
like
he can take MBA ,which is a year long course
and PWN me
who has only a BBA
and he would hv advantage cos of his bio + biz power

argh i was so set initially on FASS psychology/new media i couldnt be bothered what kind of grades i got at A level but i secretly hoping for straight As for personal shiokness ( but didnt get it anyway,damn)

but now i realize im not satisfied.I have been good but never the best,no matter how hard i tried ( or did not try -.-) I think i want to challenge myself during the last few years of education.but would the Higher Powers ( i subscribe to no religion in particular and Buddhism is a principle not a religion for you religious high flyers out there) grant me such a wish?SEE HOW,LOR.

if i get law,okay lor i enter mugger world and become a legal eagle hotshot or semi retire to become a GP teacher also can :D

if i dun get law i shall prob rot in SMU biz.got lotsa people i like in SMU biz as well,my frens from NJC and VJC...they will make it an intellectually stimulating environment! :D i would really enjoy class time with them around.

or NUS life science as psychoed by Mr neo.I dont know if i have a burning passion for science but i shall delude myself tt i am a late bloomer haha.what he said is right a degree in science is much more versatile..

2010-03-09T22:07:00.000-08:00

i wonder ,10 years down the road.

how far would we have come?

2010-03-09T00:58:00.001-08:00

most of my class mates are employed i feel kind of like a bummer jus practising guitar at home and playing com.

after many hours of consulting relatives.more or less set on law/life sci.if i really dun like NUS ill go SMU biz.it all depends on this sat!

loads of my high scoring friends in smu biz are going.

before applying for law,which i will probably NOT get anyway ( like im mentally prepped to not get it 90%, jus try jus try =))

NTU is out for me unless i suddenly develop an interest in maritime studies.

anyway anyone want to sign up with me for SG cares? =)

2010-03-08T04:26:00.001-08:00

i feel sian now that i see the group of 6As people in my class in the top students photogs on fb.lol count my blessings.

2010-03-08T04:03:00.001-08:00

not good enough.again.

not good enough during PSLE and O levels to get into the school I wanted.now probably the same thing is going to happen for A levels.shit that doesnt even count cos i donno wat i want.

boonbin asked me to go back sch consult mr neo ( career guidance ah ) n now I am like half psycho-ed to do life sciences.wah lao it is like a vicious cycle.I shall write a path of my ambitions.

I wanted to be a nurse in pri 1,my first ambition,no idea WHY.I think the idea of healthcare just seemed very wholesome and perfect to me.

Then i wanted to be an author cos my dad used to make be read lotsa books,imagine the trauma of a seven year old kid being forced to read charles dickens from cover to cover.i became averse to boring genres but on the whole it cultivated a love for reading,so Im really thankful to my dad for selflessly building up my education foundation...so dad whereever you are now im really grateful..pls give me help and direction during times when im so confused on what to do..

cue sec sch when the drawing manga bug hit i wanna be an artist.but no $ so i gave up.plus there are loads more people out there who have been drawing...i could compete with them if i had the dedication and resources...but such creative outlets would have to take a backseat to pragmatism.

I think the past few days the most jialat one. media ->life sciences->aviation->business->dentistry( why not medicine you ask who the fk are you kidding i have no brains or balls for med)->law->life sciences -_________________-

ok dentistry is no hope one la.
media too superficial so ive crossed tt out.
law the 10th percentile is AAA/A im slightly below :( but i tink i have a chance of getting in cos I have A for GP.universities mainly consider your 3 h2s and GP and GP is the main killer of many people.therefore i tink i have an advantage over an AAA/A person with GP B.but what im afraid for law is tt the content might be too dry i think ill jus die on the spot -.-

it all depends on march 13 when i go down for the open house of NUS.please let me absolutely love/hate it there...i still like smu lei!

2010-03-07T02:18:00.000-08:00

now with the flurry of options i am even more confused.-_- and im even considering courses that i have never even thought bout before,namely business and dentistry!but the latter is eliminated cos of my lovely B for lit :(

and to make myself feel worse i logged on to rjc and hci webpage to see their school stats.great over there i am an underperforming bummer.and i realized i know 2 people from the special mention scholars list in HCI O_____O one of them is doing medicine and the other is studying Philosophy,Politics and Economics in Oxford...i guess it pays to be proactive in inter-school activities,next time i can come and con money from both of you, qihan and dina!!!

both of them are not especially RA-RA people but i guess they exude their own charm..I AM SO JEALUZZZ D: i wanna wanna wanna scholarship too! boo hoo hoo my life achievement suddenly seem so insignificant.

after thinking for a while i decided not to submit my caas application form.I dont want to tie myself down to an organization yet.my mom jus told me this story abt her bro getting a psc scholarship,and afterwards he forfeited it because he had alot of job offers during his uni studies and felt that his prospects were better outside of the govt.now he is doing pretty well in shanghai...

went to the SMU open house today.Super cool i was very impressed by the facilities,the comprehensiveness of the programme.And the subtle suaning of other universities courses was present LOL but it was more understated than SMU so we wouldnt think that they were putting down other universities for the sake of it.the seminar style of lessons is also suited for people like me who cant pay attention during lectures as it offers less chances of sleeping.the mentally stimulating environment also encourages my thinking processes.and SMU business is going to be accredited within the next 2 years so I am really happy!that was the only thing i was worried about because i intend to do my masters/phD ( if i ever study for so long) overseas and since SMU is not so established might dampen my chances.

perhaps a double major in social science or psychology of the sorts simply because i enjoy the subject :)

2010-03-05T23:05:00.000-08:00

alot of the successful people do not have a degree,but then im afraid it is quite practical in singaporean society.

now tt i got my results i really dont know what i should do now.not even in the mood for celebrating,dunno what to celebrate about.I have landed into the group of close-to-perfect-score-but-not-quite people (i should form a support group for these people) and absurdly depressed over it though there are some people that are congratulating me,some saying tt my results are OK and asking me which uni course i applying,which i still havent figured out yet.

healthcare,aviation or media industry.
medicine,psychology,new media,business?????like wth.

aiyah dunno lah visit all the open houses then decide ho hum xd

A level results.

2010-03-05T08:58:00.001-08:00

i got A for GP,bio,chem,math and PW ,B for lit and chinese.for those that are interested.alvina already told me beforehand tt i did "pretty well" so i roughly knew that i didnt have a perfect score but i did reasonably well.5As and 2Bs.not perfect but i think i should be content.

im kind of pressured by the 600 people in RJC who scored better than me but i hope all of them study overseas so there will be space for me in local U BWAHAHHAHA.

Congrats to all those that went up onstage! =)

ryan michelle sharon boonbin 6As is like fantastic xD totally deserve it! and wenzhen n jon got 4As,back row slackers ftw!

when i first heard tt i had 5 distinctions i though that my GP would get B because i didnt finish my compre and compo...plus i faked half my points for compo cos it was a question i didnt study for ( like the rest of NYJC i studied sci and tech blindly, it is not something i would advise to my juniors...)

i am kind of disappointed for my lit though :( it was the only subject that i really expected myself to get A for the other subs were like quite not secure.guess A levels can be really unpredictable especially for humanities.ugh.

AND WTH HALF OUR CLASS GOT A FOR GP ( roughly around ten i think i am not too sure didnt go noseying around everyones results) much higher than the school's 9%.gopal must have some magic power we didnt know about.maybe during our sleeping time in her class we must have absorbed her ghostly aura which empowered us during GP.even j lau who consistently got U throughout his nyjc life got a D for GP.

went home to an empty house,got nagged at by mom for not being in the top 3 in class,got nagged at by uncle for not getting straight As,ate dinner,irritated friends on msn,facebooked and congratulated people for their good results.

i really wonder if i should have accepted the h3 chem they offered me in jc2.but nevermind what is over is over! :D

2010-03-03T05:24:00.000-08:00

did a last minute registration for Trinity Guildhall Exams.the exams are in MAY-jun instead of July like i though like wtf i might be taking exam in 2 months time when i hvnt gotten the pieces lol.i hope for the best,opted to leave my teachers name out of my cert in case i majorly screw up like i did for grade 4.pretty apprehensive but learning how to get over my fear of playing to stern looking examiners in enclosed rooms.

Things to take note
1)play your score slowly but in time
2)memorize score,the stand with the book is just to hide your face
3)no sweaty palms no sweaty palms
4)who wants to listen to me play and watch me with a stern expression while scribbling mysteriously( like er,what seems to be a zero lol) in a notebook. so i can be less nervous during exam?lol DESPERATE TIMES CALL FOR DESPERATE MEASURES.

going korea/transit 2 days in shanghai in 14-22 april,which eliminates possibilities of a stable part time job lol.need anything?

2010-03-01T21:26:00.001-08:00

i need to stop having weird dreams abt A level results/my ex-boss/classmates/being wrongfully accused by my mother of commiting suicide.it is like my conscious mind doesnt really care. but then my subconscious is like giving me nightmares.

more or less narrowed down my uni choices to psychology with minor in business.now is just a matter of which uni.probably NUS though i think the bidding system is stupid.but some of the General Education Modules are interesting,albeit useless.

and ive been part time job hunting lately.if i stay at home too much i dont think i cant stand my mom asking me again to accompany her to bukit timah hill for her brisk walks.the fresh air does NOT do me any good!

think im wearing grey this friday,think itll dampen my chances? =)

importance of education

2010-02-27T20:27:00.000-08:00

it just struck me again.
the importance of studying...perservering these few years in our youth..
went thru the psb academy degrees ( kinda private institution for those who cant get into local Us i think)

the fees compared to local Us are up to 5-10 times the price!considering the hefty amount of money for uni fees this is no joke.

so if my sis doesnt do well she might have to take up one of these degrees.-.- looks like my education insurance would have to pass on to her...cant use it for my own luxury that would be too much of a financial burden.

MUST MUST MUST get a scholarship! D:

which means:

1)slack part time job to afford time to build up my resume and allow interviews.(maybe during uni i shall work as a bass guitarist in a jazz pub,i heard tt it is super boring and easy,only need to play like 5 bars repeatedly for 3 hours LOL )
2)hope my A levels and cca portfolio up to standard *prays*
3)do well in uni! which means going to a course i like.NUS FASS seems like the only choice then.unless i wanna consider science.business and law seems really hard.as you can see i am still hopelessly stuck in limbo lol.

Uni open house dates:
NUS (13-14 March )
NTU ( 27 feb for the lets talk NTU...no idea when the open house i heard ard the 13th also?)
SMU (6-7 March)
SIM (12-13 March)